Dreams- floating dances and old dreams of cave dwellers

First it started off as going to a mansion or something. I remmeber going to a room next to the outside pool with like apiece of exercise equipment and a bed ounge thing.

And then I was with a group of students i think, a class and we had all been captured... we were in this mall-like docking bay place and there was this fat man in charge who we never really interacted with but there was a girl our age who seemed to take a perverse pleasure in being in charge... perhaps the daughter of someone who owned the place. there was a small space for us to live in,all 20 of us and a single small bathroom. There was a clothes department that we were to be in charge of, it was similar to one that I dreamed of before.

She would come sometimes and issue mandates... I think she really didn't like me or something because she would come in and say "I thout I said that everyone was t wear a red shirt or something red on top." and some girls who didn't have red would be taken away or smething but I was weaing a thin red jumper over a white shirt and a red hat... I don't think that she was very cruel or any good at what she was doing, she couldn't do anything that sufficently scared us or at least I was sure that she was incompettant and i think she sensed that or that I was in charge or the most important or something... she would come in with her body guards and try to make our lives difficlt. Very odd. Once she came in and tried to come up with something and I think I asked he sarcasticall if she was going to tell us that the girl's shirts had to be blue this time but she decided on something had an evil smirk and said no, I just came for your hair. And that was low but I nonchalently smiled, grabbed a piar of siccors and cut it off below my ears under my hat and handed it to her. She didn't really want it because she was trying to get me mad or upset but she took it and was disapointed... I think then she came back and decided that was to follow her around as her personal assistant or something. No idea.. it was really strange because either we got close or she changed into someone else because when we went into a movie theatre ride she was all chatty and when a big alien monster got into the room was was hanging on to me... she was still a total jerk though. The alien monster thing was scary, I think that you had to be frightened before it would eat you but it came to the row in front of us and i think it stood over my head but I closed my eyes and tried hard not to feel anything and despite its best interests it moved away.

Then i think it changed to going to this mansion in a mountain... with the pool and the room out in back. It's very hard to remember the correct order.

Then I think I flew or was taken somewhere northern and visited Kelly's "new" place that her family was living in. It was so weird. Kelly wasn't there but her sisters and mom was and the road they lived on was two lane, deserted with nothing around the house. I went to Kelly's room and looked around but she didn't show up...

Then I think I was with the girls I sed to go to church with and we were in my old home. We were walking around or preparing for a dance or a skit or something and I was giving them a tour I think, we tested the rolling doors between the kitchen and the large room (bedroom or dining) and they stuck and moved with difficulty and Nat sai dthat we hadn't taken good care of them. I had to agree. "We often had messes in the other room" I said, and then I think i showed them a music thing and then it was time to preform. We lined up outside the other rollable doors from the hallway to the bedroom and I was trying to decide how to shut the music off without misisng my que or maybe hopeing that it would turn off on it's own- perhaps I had even forgotten about the music because it was blaring and Nat ran back and did something and it stopped. Thinking that it was off for good, the doors opened and we either danced or something into a V formation and stood, ready to preform, Nat had joined us before the doors opened, and as we started, the music came up again and it ws loud enough to ruin our skit thing becase we couldn't hear our music. Well of course everyone would be mad at that and me but we tried our best. Afterwards I think I tried to ask Nat what happened because i thought she went and turned it off. Apparently she couldn't figure out how and the thing just went on a lull of its own accord and restarted up.

Then I was doing some hiking thing.. I was with the girls and maybe some large youth group from the church. I think that we went horseback riding and slepted in tents perhaps and as we rested by the side of the road there was this guy who looked of pacific asian decent who was jogging past and everyone was like "Who's that?" and I think someone said that he was someone's son back from his mission or just on his misison or visiting or something and he had to get back to his group on foot. It was all very interesting.

And then i was in some sort of gymnasium. It felt like the church's. I remember hopping off of the stage and I was with these guys and I was wearing ballet stuff and we were told to do exercises, like ballet jumps and stuff along the short way of the gym. There was a women there in charge, petit and she was alwayoff in the side corner kind of, talking to someone. I remmeber wanting to get her attention so as I was doing these leapts I kythed or whatever, letting my brain hover a little above me and my body would pause mid-leap and hang there or glide slowly forward. She noticed and ran right over and she was a mster of the craft, she grabbed me and flung me around and up and did some weird dance thing. it was a little scary but spectacular.After that I was made to go to her class always and I gues sthat she was my teacher. Very odd. She spoke in this sibilant tone and I only heard her voice while I was in the groove. There were all these guys there that I was to dance with, do all number of floating dance exercises with. There was this one dance that she demonstrated where the more floating person (me0 would be kind of swung around rigt below the swinger's armpits in a circular arch around them and end up a baby doll swaddled in clothes in their arms in the end. o.O it was very very weird.

I think I had to go to a regular gym class besides and there was this guy there that either missed auditions or was kicked off who was there and I danced with him. I guess osmeone found out and that I wasn't supposed to do that because I got in trouble. I rememebr being in the shower (don't ask) with the leader of the team and he was just talking to me, berating me of how I would do something so foolish and with that guy, him, and how anything could have gone wrong and showed everyone my abilities and yadda yadda yadda... by then I was sorely regretting what I had done... someone came by and held their hand out between the shower curtain where the guy was and they held a long thick hair.. it was straigh but no longer than 4-5 inches... it had a bit of something at the end and the guy picked it up.. the conversation the guy had with the guy whose hand had the hair told me that the hair was a way to speak snake language and that this guy either naturally had it or had it by ways of the hair but he didn't know so after letting someone borrow it, he had to reinsert it into his face. I switched POVs to the guy and he looked into a mirror or somethign and there were two bleeding small holes onhis face above and to the side of his mouth and he was trying to decide which one to put the hair back into. He just shoved the end of the hair into the larger one, but not taking hold, he took it out and put it in the smaller one. Then the lady came by and she hissed and I couldn't understand what she was saying. Her lower body slithered in place like that old medusa badly-done clay special affects thing from the 70's and I couldn't undertsand her but I think that she wanted to know what was going on and she may have been mad.. I'm not sure.

I can't remember anything after that.



A few weeks ago I had some dreams that I didn't get around to writing down.
The first one I was in the car with my grandma and bro and we were driving along some turnpike.. I remmber that I had Rufus' CD in the CD player as I wanted her to listen to him but I was a little freaked out because I needed to fast forward the cusisng parts and I couldn't remember where they were. Which is odd because my dream self thought that there was some really bad stuff in there which wasn't true. I think i was confusing him with some angry rock group. So weird.

And then I had a dream about this family that lived in a cave that was half made out of stone an dthe other half, or the top was this huge blanket. The part where you came in wa sthe blanket. There was a family living in a large modern home not 100m nearby and they looked down at this rock dwelling family because I think that there was some sort of radiation on the planet that would slowly kill the rock people while the house people were safe underneath their metal and solar panel UV ray things on the roof. I remember either being on of the older boys in the family or as myself visiting, but somehow part of the family.. there were three older brothers living with their father and each of the brothers had 5-6 children, young. I think that the little boys had some sort of racing game. The inside of the tent was odd. Part of it had an old refridgerator and each other the brothers had a room of the caves that branched out with a huge bed where their families slept. The brothers were talking with their father over the recent dispute they had just had with the house people- that they had too many people perhaps and thet they were supposed to die off not grow and the brothers all sai dthat it wasn't their fault for having so many children. I remember going to the supermarket nearby where the older boy somehow found work or work that would hire him and he dressed up in the shop's uniform and stocked and stuff. I remember going to one side of the store and buy ing some crayons and chalk and paper and things for the little children to play with. My brother was there with me and we were trying to come up with things that the children would enjoy because they had basically nothing.


That was about it.

I had the weirdest dreams last night.

First it was something about Harry in some Tomb.. stone walls and those old stone caskets and everything except for any dead bodies. Ron was there with him and for some reason Snape washis guardian or something.. he handed him a leather guilded book that was very special with the instructions that he show no one. it could ruin everything if the other people were to read the hints and clues from the book that Harry had.

So Harry and Ron were in their rectangular, lit with unnatural light, tomb thingy and having fun playing around and three people came by to try to trick or ask him to read his book. Harry didn't care about the book at first because he didn't want to do any school work studying so it was burind under a pile of book in the middle stone sycaphugus. I can't remember the order of the people who came.. I think Peter Pettigrew came first.. Harry and Ron treated him like he was just some regular person they knew and when he asked for the book they just told him that they didn't know where it was. They were being distracted by their toys or something and didn't really want to get up and get it for him. Then Peter started whimpering or begging or something but they threw a pillow at him and told him to get out. I think Sirius came next, and this time Harry remember Snape's warning that the otehrs would use it to get ahead in the game. Sirius was sent away and told that he couldn't see Harry's book.

The last, I think was Ginny and she was harder to get rid of because she was like a nosy younger sibling, poking around the room trying to find the book even though her older brother and Harry told her to go away.

After they all left, I remmeber Harry starting to pull out his school books, these great big books which were actually thin but still big and stacked them on top of the stone bed thing while he pulled them up from inside it...



Then I was myself... I think I was on some sort of quest. I was wearing either my Hogwarts skirt or a pair of shorts but it was a very warm autumn night... I had a backback and a book. I actually think I was wearing a short sleeved white dress shirt with a vest and a tie...

I was to go on some challenge and lots of other people were going to go on the same thing. We were told that we could join together if we wanted. I remember setting off down the road, there were some buildings around more like a village or some theme park with clay buildings. The wind started to blow behind me, at me and I sat down in the middle of the concrete sidewalk. I had been told that there were pets that you were supposed to collect. One was a smaller Now and Later pet, rectangular and coloured just like the candy wrappers with the letters. They would be quite random and not very intelligent at all, basically just moving around with eyes and a mouth... the Second was a cross between a black duck and a puppy and they were bigger and were at least sentient.

As I sat there on the concrete, the wind blowing and my legs splayed ou in front of me, those little creatures came with the wind or something and I did my best to gather them up and not let the wind blow. For some reason I decided to just ignore the little candy animals and went immediately for the little black ball animals. They were difficult to keep as they kept trying to move and the wind would blow them away. I think I had about 4 of them, maybe three that I was constantly catching and trying to hold still. I was in a semi-concious state.. like when you fall asleep at the computer but still do stuff, so it was really difficult to hold on to the little guys. I also had my backpack and leather guilded book that I HAD to hold on.

Some other girls around me were trying to get the little animals too. I can't remember what we got but I think i was able to keep a few. The next thing I remember is asking the girls if they wanted to join me and have a group. One girl said yes but that she was waiting for her friend who was still through the processing plant.. she was just about to come so we waited.

I next remember traveling through the end of a walmart aisle.. no idea why that was there but I remember coming out of an aisle and meeting another one horizontal and blocking my way that I had to get around and the otehr girls/guys? with me were coming in the same direction from different aisles and we all moved around it together.

Then there was something about a school or an amusement park... It kind of reminded me of some outdoor themed place. I think I was slightly underground adn i knew a guy who was in on it who I knew was either our team leader (my group) and/or had some inside knowledge of what was goin on. We went into this room where there was an arcade and there were these Horiible Zombies in there, ready to attack us and we had to kill them.. it was really scary but we either used so guns or some special powers.. I remember having to turn around and help someone finish of some of the because they were all over the room.. I think Draco was in my group maybe.. anyways afterwards either some people left or our group was smaller... the guy in charge stayed and said that he had to set the Zombies up for the next group. Theye were like sacks or puppets or something now and he had to use magic to set them back up. I watched for a few seconds before realizing that I didn't want to be in the room when those things were reanimated because they could seriously hurt me.

I left the room and moved on to the next.. there was this outside courtyard and I could look into some of the buildings with glass windows- one looked like a botany lab or an indoor garden, I could see a mad scientist in there (who I knew was an actor) and a student going through some part of the quest. My group was ushered into another room across the courtyard that looked like a school lab only with a large square table.

I jokeningly came up with the next challenge to pretend that someone's hand was cut off with a lot of blood to freak out the stragler of our team who hadn't come yet (who was busy doing something else) and the person in charge actually thought that I was going over board. "Well the point of this thing is to scare everyone, right?" I countered and having figured it out no one debated it but no one wanted to do my idea either. I think it either scared them or they thought that it really was too much. I think that part of this quest was that you really thought that what was ging on was real and no one wanted to really make them live that.

Can't remmber much else. I think I woke up after that. The little black puppy duck things were cute in a freaky way. They were really really small though, small enough for me to almost keep in my hand.

Dreams - Sand on Mars

First I remember being on some shuttle, like a large white van with darkly tinted windows. it landed on Mars, a terraformed Mars. I can't remember WHY I was there but the XC team of girls was there too. The Sun was shining, if a litle bit bigger on Earth and the sky was a light but vibrant blue. I got out of the van and someone was there to greet me. I walked over to a building... the area around had been developed but it was still barren, I think the ground was sad. I remember that some girls from the team were on the side of the building where there was a shallow beach before a quickly deepening water. The water was not clear but the sand was fine and soft and deep. The water and sand was really warm. I dug my feet into the sand. There was a guy lifeguard there...

I think I wandered off and looked at some other things before coming back to the beach. I marveled how the air was breathable oxygen even though it felt different than earth's. I was afraid to try to go for a run or workout and find out how different it was. I looked across the water and saw a crane over a big pile of sand dirt.. like that are had been barely touched so far. I got into the water.. I think I swam out maybe 15 feet but the water got deep almost immediately... a wave came and I was thrown into the whip pull tide thing and almost drowned. The came to my rescue, actually saved my life and I was really grateful but embarrassed. He was a good sport about it and everyone was worried but a bit annoyed that i almost drowned. Ha. I think I left the beach after that.


I next remember being in a van back on earth going back to my house in NJ- only it was a bit more surreal than that. I can't rememeber an other cars around. Two girls that I knew from my Firth HS vball team were there but there were acting really really weird- all snotty. They had decided to come with us back home for some reason, more like uninvited tag along. A guy was driving us, the guy who took me to her sister's wedding and I was stuck in SC for a week... after dropping the girls and one of my best friends off we stopped at my house. I remmeber walking around the side and noting how different it seemed, the part on the right that you usually turn to go past stuck out in a different structural shape like a bed room was there and a door was there too. Anywaysthe guy said he needed to use the bathroom so I was like it's over there and told him to make sure that all three doors were closed. So I was a little annoyed because I had to wait for him to be done before I could head over to my friend's house down the street. I wandered around, went into the living room and a room my brother usually used and thought about making up a bed for the guy on the mattress on the floor- don't ask me whey- when I was like, what am I doing? I should just make him sleep on the couch is I can't get rid of him. So anyway I walk over to the other side of the house and the guy is obviously out of the bathroom, he's talking on the phone to someone and walking around that big room, usually a big bedroom but i had the double doors closed and I was afraid of opening them just in case he was being indecent. So I'm like getting mad and hoping that it wasn't my phone because he didn't even ask... so I yell out that I'm going over to Betty's (I can't stand waiting for this guy any longer and i have to rescue my friend from the bimbos) and he's like "okay" and then I started to walk away before remembering something: "Don't touch my computer okay?" I yelled back. I don't think he heard me because he didn't answer so I walked back up to the doors and yelled again. "Do NOT touch the computer in there, ok?!" And he said ok, or yes or something before being distracted and going back to his phone conversation.

So I left the house and started to the back of the house to travel through the back woods- don't ask me why. Only the woods were different.. reminded me of some Fantasy Chinese wood challenge course.. I don't remember much else after this.


(About the beach on Mars part... [and no, this is not poetry, I took this from an IM]

like the terraformed Mars two nights ago
and how the oxygen was different since it had been changed with a machine to be breathable but it was still alien air
yeah I was afriad to go running or I'd pass out
and the ground was all sand without any organic stuff in it like you know the play sand?
the entire planet was like that, a golden colour
but we couldn't stay long because of the radiation

there was a beach and the water got deep really relly quickly- more like a pool
only it had waves
and I went swimming
but the rip tide caught me and I almost drowned
the life guard saved me
but it was scary

Mars was really warm
but not humid
and bright
we were closer to the sun
and the sky didn't have any clouds

we were practically in the middle of nowhere
there were a few buildings
and the van shuttle we had used to visit
but that was it
it was newly terraformed
everything was artificial

(across from the mini beach I could see the sand
and a crane/thing that construction workers used
to level the terrain and stuff
like they were getting ready to build)
because the little area was new and while it might be able to sustain itself
there was nothing there we'd be familiar with
only a few planted trees
that had been brought
nothing else
even the beach was the soft sand.. no sea life
no debris
and you could almost feel the increased radiation

Singing Group Dream

So last night was a cool dream.

The first thing I remember is singing at the end of this line of teenager/college student singers. Like I was in a band or a group or something. We were on some school stage, maybe a high school but it wasn't so big. I think that there were 6 of us and I was at the end next to this lanky redheaded glasses wearing guy. A black girl was in the middle and singing part of a verse (she had a little raspy voice but she could sing) and the whole groups was walking back and forth in this line facing the crowd. I knew that we were in some sort of band.. and that the producers/boss kept giving me all the opening and closing verses in all the songs because I was the popular and talented one or something. I was bemused because I don't think I'm the great of a singer- but realized that I was the person in the group that the general populace favoured (probably my crazy fun ditzy attitude and coolness) <.< , and as I listened to another guy sing another verse to a sing I'd never heard before as we all walked dorkily back and forth I decided that I was supposed to sing the last and closing verse. So not knowing anything I just butted in and made up something that i thought rhymed. Half way through singing this very short verse I realized that the carrot headed boy next to me was upset and then I realized that it was supposed to be his verse. I felt really bad and as soon as the end ended we all exoted the stage and I immediately apologized and offered him to sing one of my parts next time (I always had all the good parts). I think he declined or a producer came and shuffled us over to some round tables on the back of the stage for us to sit at.

(I remember doing other songs and that the microphone was being difficult- either it was too short and I kept trying to pull it and was stuck at the side with my body turned toward the mic or it was messed up and annoying.. I remember doing the other songs. What was cool is that I think i was weraing my Ravenclaw uniform- the grey short skirt and vest and tie and black Mary Janes with knee high stockings)

Some fans were supposed to come and give skittles ot MMs or something to their favourite person... I sat at the last table closest to the wall across from the red headed boy. A whole bunch of fan girls rushed in... Some girl ran over to the red headed guy and dropped a whole handful of light green oes and gushed over him, as soon as she left I raised an eyebrow and told him how populare he was (trying to get his self esteem up because I feared that he thought that he wasn't considered as good as some people in the group and that why he didn't get as many singing parts). I think that the Skittles giving was color coded because another fan girl say me and give me a huge pile of red skittles, and then another girl.. another girl ran up to the guy and gave him some light green skittle.. I guess my color was red and I thought that I should have more fans but I didn't mind. I figured that I just reallt messed up on the concert that day. I think I got up and moved to a different table, wanting to be more accessible or maybe feeling out of the way.

At the other table some black girls came up to me with a manilla envelope and asked to interview me for their school paper. They seemed a little uninterested in me so when they opened up a book/folder from the manilla envelope and I saw a baton team I was like "Oh! batons! I used to do that!" and the girls were like- "What? Really?" and looked at me with a little better light. I told them that I did Flag squad my freshman-no wait my Sophmore year and the year after that wheni moved I did Batons. (I have no idea why I said I did batons- I think my dream self was confused). I think told them some stuff and baton/flag throwing stuff and signed some autographs and they moved on.

I partially woke up then and wondered what I was thinking telling them that since it was never official. I mused on the fact of trying to do a flag thing in front of an audience for the next show since i then would undoubtedly either prove my skills or the producers would hear and make me so it. I figured that I would impress the people with throwing a flag around and not looking when I caught it and talk during the routine- I think figured that it would be likely for me if I were to throw it up high and that it would never come down- stuck on a light or something. To be funny entertainment, I would look up puzzled, and then when it fell and hit my head I'd run around screaming "The Sky is falling! The sky is falling!" I'd probably trip over my own feet purposefully or trip over a cable and fall to the ground and go "Ow"!, probably to laughter. >.<

Dreams.. thrift shop

Dreams

I was with my 11th grade concert choir teacher and the concert cjoir only it was twice the size of what it really was and I hardly knew anyone. We got on a bus and went to a trip. At first I thought that we were really up North or something so I wanted to buy some cloth and lace for a lolita outfit... some girls from my freshman basketball team were there and we were at some large hotel campus like thing, I remember that we were supposed to be outside to get on the busses to go somewhere so I followed the girls down/up some stairs and we turned left and were about to exit through some double doors on the left but we spotted a kind of tiny cafeteria snack counter so everyone had to look at it and go "ouuuu, ahhhh" and plan to sneak back down later after we had gotten back.

I wanted to check out this large barn sized cloth area in the hotel but we were going right away so I was a little disapointed but my teacher looked at me like I was being silly, they said 'Don't you know where we are going to go?" but I didn't know quite were we were. Someone mentioned that we were in the state with the umm "Eden" mall? or something and then I was like, isn't that in Ohio? And they were like, yeah. So we were all about to get into these mini buses and vans, and I was with some girls I wanted to hang out with only they went towards this large van with all these people and I was like, there'll never be room for me, but some guys in the van started yalling for one more person to hop in so I approache dthe left and sat in the second row next to this guy. Another guy was in the front and he was playing a hand held video game or something, I think the guy to my left grabbed it from him and kept playing and the first guy was lik e"Hey! You'll ruin it" but the second guys was like "Nah" and he played, died, but the score had been over 130 so the guy still passed the level and could move to the second one.

Then I was in some huge thrift shop. It was almost like one of those indoor arcade games. my family was there- I think I was with my grandma and my brother was nearby. I walked past a giant basketball hoop mounted on the wall with giant stuffed animals and children being thrown up to sit in the net... I was looking around. I found this aquarium area and I entered it; there were all these ceiling high blue water large hexagon aquarium all after one another making a maze, the ceiling was reflecting the color and there weren't any lights except for the fish tanks. I walked into the area and look at tank after tank of the fish, after tank after tank. Soon i started to get grossed out because I don't like fish really, they freak me out but I was in this huge fish tank maze. I looked down at the floor and tried to look at the red carpet only, blocking out the bright blue glowing things around me.

I finally exited the maze and I think that I was in some sort of large grocery store. Wayne and James were there and wanted to start buying food now. I had really wanted to go back to the toy thrift area because I wanted to find some lego people and some cloth to make barbie doll outfits out of. Don't ask I have no idea why I wanted Barbie stuff but when I was little I liked them a lot.

I reluctuantly helped gather some food, I remember thinking that one part of the store was deserted, which was odd because it was usually busy but the store was so crowded now that there was a line like 100 meters long blocking that area and all the new shoppers didn't know it existed so they didn't go through the line or around through the hidden side. We went around through the hidden side and got some food from the area- I think it was a delli, seafood, produce area. We then returned to the line and joined it. I think that there was a large group of students there all shopping together for their food and we either got in line before them or with them but before most of them.

Rufus Quizza

You are "Poses"
You want to be anyone but yourself. Obsessed with
outdoing, you've lost all sense of identity in
the expensive melee that has become your life.
Citibank will come to break your kneecaps any
day now. Poor, soon-to-be-dead you.


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Music: Rufus Wainwright - Waiting for a Dream

Dreams

I think that this one was very interesting.. the second almost book-worthy.

First there was some sort of Blair Witch Project thing going on. In color. There was a college aged guy with a camera and the only thing I saw was through the camera. He had got a bunch of friends along for a trip in the wilderness camp type thing. They arrived at the llodges... walked around a little... he said some things that built up the spookiness, mostly because I knew that this was supposed to be scary.

After a lil bit... well there was something there, something that started turning the people into animals. Literal animals but with their own faces. I thin that this was influenced by KoRn's new music video where the singers have their faces on some dogs, it really freaked me out. So anyways, the people were turning into animals like different ones. Like a dog, a wolf, a large snake, a hyenna, ect ect. I don't think that I really saw any close up because they were dangerous. I think you had to do something before you were turned back, if you could ever turn back. After some time, I think either all his friend were killed or turned back.. the guy seemed older though like a Professor and he seemed to know that what happened proves some scientific fact. He called together some scientists and news reporters to come spend a week at the lodge to see his theories proven. it was something about genetics I think... he was sitting in his cabin looking at some transparent film with a triumphant look in his face.

This time I was there as myself. I remember getting out of a overpacked station wagon... then wandering around the beautiful woods, there was a nice stream with all these green trees. There were some metal fences around too but nothing you couldn't climb over, much like a park.
Then I remember the horror. I was in a one room cabin, modernish with some other people and we were scared out of our lives. Some people-turned animals kept running at the door, trying to get in. I think we either had a thick screen door or a two piece door with a screen at the top because we could see them. I had a pallet on the floor right in the middle of the room in front of the door. We were low on food, afriad that we'd turn into the atrocious animals, wild, frenzy animals that wish to bite us whenever they came within feet- like it was their sole purpose. It reminded me of those scary zombie movies where the disease is carried through bites and wounds. I remmeber thinking that we should take turn taking watch. The person on my right had been bitten I think, and they had a day left before they started showing the disease and harming us. Even so, we were willing to sleep in their presence but wouldn't trust them before long. I think the person was slowly cooking some food- we were low on food but we were all hungry. The people to my left had already started sleeping and I was so tired too. I knew that I could stay up though. One of the symptons of the disease at first is heightened awakefulness, and it's harder to go to sleep so I knew that I should let this person take first watch.

I can't remember much after that... I remember going outside, running away from some animals, turning voluntarily into an eagle or a hawk and flying away before turning back into myself.

The next thing I remember is being in some giant factory. I think I had just been captured or taken or transfered or something. It was a semi futuristic place. Conveyor belts were there and some guards that didn't seem malevelent. There was a second floor by way of stairs, you could see it because it was all open. I was on the first floor, I walked over to the conveyor belt to see some teenagers doing something on it. I was surprised to realize that I knew these people- I recognized them from school as the smart ones all the way from elementary school.

I immediately knew what was going on. It was odd, like I had partial amnesia but I KNEW what was going on. The conveyor belt had bood on it, like bread and cakes and other things and the smart kids were supposed to be processing it. Something was wrong because they weren't acting right, they seemed dumb down and they were eating some of the food as it went by. I tried to tell them not to, there was some plot to make them stupid. They just laughed at me and told me that the food was great and that I should sign up for this post because you got to eat free. I looked and I saw... the plot- there was some battle between the earthlings and someone else... the someone elses wanted to make us all stupid in the past so that we would evole to be their servents while we had done something sort as bad as they had- I think we fought them in a war, perhaps we were still fighting but if the someone else's succeeded in this latest endevour, all would be lost. We might have even used them as servants and they were trying to get back at us for it. I tried to tell the people not to eat the food- that there was something in it like a genetic virus that would make their children no better than dufoons. They wouldn't listen and I feared that it would be too late. The guards still seemed to mostly ignore me, they didn't seem hostile. I had to do something.

Someone came behind me, lead me away, told me 'Not here' and with some sense I could tell that this person knew what was going on just the same way I knew. I had the feeling that hardly anyone in the billions of people on both side knew what was truly going on and how the universe could be messed up if they messed with time that far back, changing one people and the retaliation that might entail...

The man lead me over to a conveyor beltnearby, it was stationary and covered in boxes of supplies. He said that he knew what was going on and planned to stop it, and that if I wanted to do something, I could help him. He needed help and he needed to know what I knew. I knew in a way that he was going against his government, his people. I couldn't tell what side he was from but right now I think that he working on the someone else's. He looked human though and I think that maybe both sides were.

I agreed to go with him, and I started to pack some supplies that I understood the people in charge here were allowing him to take. I picked up a brown paper bag and took the items out of it so that i could use it to transport some goods, I noticed that it was still heavy and that there were actually two bags stack in each other and hidding something in between them, I pulled off the first bag and looked in the second to see a yellow thing. I was excited because I realized that if we did this purposefully that we could take more supllies without the people knowing, thus giving ourselves an advantage. There was a teenaged boy also helping the man (perhaps a scientist or professor?) pack up things and I could tell that he worked for the man so I went over to him to share the "secret". He didn't understand at all though, something was wrong with him if he couldn't understand so simple a concept and I realized that he had already been changed. I helped the man pack the rest of the supplies and place them on a cart.

The man called out to the people in charge saying that he'd be taking 'this one' (me) too to help him and the guards were perfectly okay with that, just nodding and saluting him out. I followed the floating/rolling? cart out, through some enclosed walls. I think that the factory was really in space. We got into some rocket and blasted away to join another ship. Everything had gravity though.

When we joined the other ship... well I don't recalled what happened first, I just remember realizing that I was different too. I was human but my body felt odd. I wasn't hungry or thirsty and I didn't need to use the loo.. I felt half machine like I could do things that I couldn't do before. I knew that I was different because I still had the same mind and I still was the same person and except for the amnesia I knew things and understood things other people didn't seem able to. I felt like a walking doll.

No matter. I decided to play 'normal'. The man introduced me to some other girls when we docked, and I felt weird again, it's hard to explain but I almost felt like a persocon and the other girls were like persocons only more lively and chattery I think. I remember that I was wearing some dress that was lolita. It was so pretty and large with ruffles and an apron.

I remember walking around the ship... it was kind of like an underwater ship only in space and much much larger. The hallways were actually spacious but the doors slid open automatically.
There was one girl, with dark long hair and dark eyes. I was looking for her and another girl (one of them was named Cele but I can't remember which) and I follwed some inate sense to find them. When I opened the door the black hair girl was terrified and so upset. I didn't know it, but all the girls had their own small rooms, and this girl needed to share because of some ability... she was terrified and wailed out, begging me not to turn her in and tell anyone that she had emphatic ability. I was a little confused, and I guess i must have looked it because the girl explained that that was how I found her, by using my own emphatic ability. She said that she needed to sleep near someone so she didn't lose herself and to please not turn him in for having this special ability. I had had no idea about anything like that and didn't think it really mattered so I told her that I wouldn't tell.

I remember later, walking into some room, perhaps a advanced austrology play room? The black haired girl had a globe, only you couldn't really make out what was on the globe as it was a dark misty color... bright neon rings were around it and the girl was playing with the black glowing on carelessly like a child- a flashback- of the same girl in the past.. in some old science room. She was dirty and half crying but determined to move the black ring on the globe. It was stuck.. a General came in and told her that we were finished, that unless she could get one of the rings to move and block an incoming missle that all hope was lost. Some of the rings were missing, and i knew that others had holes and would never be able to catch and reflect the missle... our only hope was the black ring that never had moved. But she was determined to move that black ring, she had moved all the others so she tried to forcefully pour up that ring to move it. It wouldn't move so with the clock ticking down she poured her inate ability through her fingertips along the black ring inch by inch, willing it to have the life to move and obey her will...

I blinked and the girl, now dressed in a pretty dress with ribbons on her hair was still gaily playing with the rings, lingering over the black one as she spun it in all directions around the globe. She had been there in the past, with me. We had been ther and now we were here but I didn't think that anyone knew about her, or perhaps they did and just kept quiet and didn't tell her. She was special.

Some time later we were to go on a mission with the man. I was surprised to find that he had a very high rank in the someone else's military.. I think he was a Captain. He took me and two other girls and we got into a passenger rocket ship to blast down to the now deserted Earth. There were no people around, just strange beings like a giant dinosaur and robotic things. I remember something happened on the rocketship... it was more like an airplane and I think that some of the passengers didn't like us (the girls) because we were different and glowed or gave them some weird feeling... I remember leaving the dark hair girl, now my friend in the back where our seats were and moving up the darkly lit interior to find the man... hmm can't remmeber much else except that we landed soon, safely.

We got down to the planet and we got into this vehicle.. it reminded me of a ambulence only futuristic and more like a landrover with seat all in the back. I was sitting in the way back and there was a guy there to drive us, his specialty was driving. The man was in the car, in military mode. We set out to chart the area and see what was around, perhaps we were searching for something, I don't know.

It was odd because the lieut or whatever his rank was who was driving had never driven an earth vehicle before, yet he was driving along the deserted but well kept roads and onto the freeway with the proper turn signals and obeyed all the traffic laws like stopping at a stop sign.
I closed my eyes and watched as we drove, realizing that this was a good thing, if there were any other vehicles out there they wouldn't expect us driving around and we could blow up in an accident. I envisioned other furturistic cars along the road from my bird eye view and wiced in relief as several almost ran into us, missing only because we were driving in the right direction or did the right signals. I think the man driving was different like us- he had driven a car like this before and he had learned the rules sometime, yet in this life he had never... his abilities came back to him as he drove and I had to wonder whether the Captian had known this. The guy had seemed nervous when I mentioned that he drove like an old earther but the Captain just ignored it and told him to drive on. I think having abilities like that was bad- perhaps it got you killed.

Suddenly some flying machine started to follow us from the air and it started shooting at us. Bright red laser blasts... there was not much that we could do. I think that the thing was some automotive military thing left over from the last war. It looked kind of like a small American UFO. Or maybe it was the someone else's. The guy driving kept driving, trying to get away or avoid the blasts but we couldn't stop and we couldn't fire back because we didn't have any weapons. We wer hit again and again. I watched from above as the red weapons fire hit the back over and over again and except for some big lurches and the wheels flattening before returning to their right shape nothing happened. We drove through the smoothly paved roads and the smooth green glass.. saw some really interesting things as we drove by like a giant dinosaur but the thing kept shooting at us. I think something got the ship though.

I can't remember what happened next.. I think I woke up. I think that we had been on the planet to find more clues, or euipment or perhaps we were trying to get to some military scientific base to do something.

Quizza

My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?

You're Tohru!


Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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Cooking to Hook up

Oh my gosh. This quiz is so accurate it's scary... all you need to do is add a little more of everything else and whala... me (which doesn't really say anything lol). Check out the other girls.

I am Progressive Girl (who wants an SUV, but feels really bad about it) Click on the picture below to read more (haha or just read below): Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com

Moderation in all things, excess in nothing. -- Epicurus

Imagine that the Girl Next Door moved to the big city. Think of Meg Ryan in When Harry Met Sally. She's America's sweetheart with an urban sensibility. She's a post-Christian spiritualist, a pre-Monica Clintonite, and a dues-paying member of at least one social-change organization like NOW, Planned Parenthood, or the Sierra Club. You won't find her at an Earth First or PETA meeting, though. Those are the Granola Girl's stomping grounds. Progressive Girls want the world to be a better place, but they live out their politics in a moderate, left-of-center way.

If you are going to date a Progressive Girl, the one sin you can commit is to be a chameleon. Molding your opinions to fit hers will lose her respect. One very positive thing you can do is offer her new experiences -- the Progressive Girl is fearless about trying new things. Whether it's pluralism, skydiving, Asian peanut sauce, or this book, the Progressive Girl is always looking for new ideas.

She Might Be a Progressive Girl if:

1. She drives: a small SUV but really wishes it got better mileage; once she can get a good hybrid, she will.

2. She can talk for more than ten minutes about: just about anything.

3. She begins her sentences with: "Susan Sarandon says..."

4. She'd never: pass up the chance for a new experience.

5. She owns any of the following: a water filter, a tabletop fountain, an acre of rain forest, a mutt from the pound.

Wanna know more about the Progressive Girl? We’ll tell you which CDs to play, shoes to wear, magazines to put on the coffee table, flowers to bring ... and of course, what to cook. Pick up a copy of Cooking to Hook Up.

Quizza LotR

Entish


To which race of Middle Earth do you belong?
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Quizza

My blog is turning out to be nothing but Quiz results and dreams.

You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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And yes, i have a Live Journal but I've never once posted a journal entry. 0_0;;

I post weird poetic stuff no one understands


why is YOUR livejournal annoying?
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Jan: *chokes*
Jan: oh the irony
Jan: i take out my Riverdance CD, which I was listening over and over again 36 times
Jan: maybe more
Jan: put in my 12 Girls Band CD for something new and...
Molly: Riverdance!
Jan: guess what!
Jan: I am now listening to Riverdance again
Molly: LOL
Jan: in an Eastern flair

Quizza!

You are a silly English Knnnnnniggit! Brave, loyal,
and (somewhat) chaste, you follow your leader
without question...even though you're not
really that smart.


Which Monty Python & the Holy Grail Character are you REALLY?
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You are a Lumberjack...with definite issues...


What Monty Python Sketch Character are you?
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weird dreams

I had the WEIRDEST dream last night...

It was centered on school.. I was at a school that was half a high school, half a postal/airplane service and partly a university.

I remember being there to preform in a concert or something... maybe sing a Riverdance song. It was so odd because there were people I knew from my first high school, as if I was in my first high school, but there were people from my second high school too.

I remember getting on a plane with these people and people from my HOL Ravenclaw forum.. the girl that runs the Alte newspaper thingy was there and we were all wearing our robes... the airplane didn't have any windows and I remember something about taking a quick trip.. we were somewhere like a snow peaked mountain or maybe we went to some forest cabin place too. I was with the HOL group but for some reason since I knew the other regular people I had to avoid them or they wanted to catch me or something.

The group got on an airplane to get back to the school, I remember that I had to be told to get on the plane by a Professor that was like Snape before I relented and got on the plane. The seats were more like the folding kind you see at church with the thick brown padding, and the inside of the plane looked more like the medium rooms in a building with the accordian dividers.

Hmm.. I remember something about being in the school and running through a boiler room, or maybe it was the cafeteria cooking room and the ladies there, while coarse, liked me even though I hadn't seen them for awhile and they let me run through even though they normally wouldn't allow anyone else to do it.

I remember running out of some double doors that normally the custodian only uses and Filtch was there with a Muggle mop and bright plastic rolling bucket. He was better kept in my dream than he was in the movie and he kind of gave a smile at me when he saw me and let me pass through his usually off-limits supply room.

I remember being blocked by some wooden walls.. they reminded me sort of a post office, only more stylish the way Americans think of British.. the walls were a dark wood and the tops overheard looked more like a railing... they didn't reach the ceiling as it was too high. I climbed over a few of them even though normal student weren't supposed to be able to do that.. I think I was running away from someone or maybe I was just playing around and avoiding the teachers... I was pretty sure that I was running away though because there was adreneline helping me vault to the top of the walls and climb over them.

A lady that reminded me of Madame Prince (the librarian) was sitting at a desk with an opening cut through on of the enclosed walls and she snorted at me as I broke the rules and vaulted away but didn't say anything and didn't alert the local authorities.

When I got to the ground I walked across the large room and peered through some double doors across the way- it was an autotorium I think full of people having a meeting. I remember moving to the over flow room and peering in, the people had moved to that room and were exaulting some paintings. I think perhaps that the painting they next held up was something I had created or knew the little boy who created it and I couldn't afford the attention because I'd have to say a speech or take something and then I'd get caught.

The caretaker, Filtch came to my rescue then and pulled out a painting that he had created. It was a gruesome thing, of hands covered in blood or maybe body parts but there was blood over the whole thing and the people lifted it high and said it was so good and then they lifted Filtch up over their heads and he basked in the praise but still he had saved me at the cost of his own... even if he had gained something from it.

I left from where I had been watched and walked back past the wooden walls, stopping at several television screens where people had congregated around. I think Lupin was there and mostly HOL students... they were searching for something in the screens, the very bright blue screens with colorful dots like old maps on games, and all the screens looked the same or similar.

Lupin said that they were looking for a misisng girl, or perhaps a downed plane and they had to find it, he asked me to help or maybe I just decided to go along and help.. I walked over to one of the screens on the right and climbed up on the black ledge, ignoring the girl who was nearby and looking at me curiously. I closed my eyes and reached my hands over the screen.. searching using some power they didn't have to find it... their need was dire but I couldn't find it... perhaps my power was failing me or I really didn't want to find her? I hoped for the second reason because the first was too horrifying to contemplate.

I think I then woke up.

There was also something about walking through some woods with a few/couple of people.. looking for a body perhaps under a bridge...

My brother gave me a cold, I'm so mad at him.

Anyways.. dreams.

Last night I dreamt that we had moved somewhere.. we have a big house but it wasn't new. The middle of the house was kind of either slightly below ground or surrounded by lots of other rooms. It felt very lived in bespite the fact that we had just moved in. For some strange reason, the missionaries were over as was Nat, a girl I used to know from church growing up. She was going to a church college around and there was some deal where she was to come over once a month. Strange that I wanted her to come and have fun. She didn't really speak or anything, and I had just moved all the couch sets downstairs in the basement where the video equipment and games were. I felt bad that the first level looked so bare and unwelcoming so I kept pressuring everyone to come downstairs cause it would be more comfortable but no one wanted to. Very odd. And so she spent a short time before someone came in and told her that her ride was here and she left and I hoped that she would stick to her promise that she would visit again, vowing that I would make her next visit fun so that she'd like to spend time with me.

I think the underlying emotion here is that I feared that I was seen as boring and unfun or something and not worth getting to be reaquainted with someone I used to know quite well, even if we were never friends. Odd that I would fear something like that as I am usually confidant in my coolness factor and usually make friends easily. It's probably a mixture of thoughts about how I don't know anyone where I live now and thinking that everyone I used to know has forgotten me, and how I've been thinking what it would be like if I visited, would they remember me even? Has everyone just moved on with their lives, having fun and doing more important things?

Quizzas

Is everyone joinging Nano (the national novel month website thingy) or is it just me?

Gacked from wreckplunderer's LJ, the author of the HP fanfic The Time of the Turning

You are the dashing but clueless........Will
Turner! The hero of the movie Pirates of
the Caribbean, your adventures include
getting wacked on the head, making deals with
nasty pirates, deciding whether or not you like
pirates, saving Elizabeth Swann, losing her,
and saving her again. Sounds fun!


Which side of Orlando Bloom are you?
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Your Animagus Form is a Cheetah!


Harry Potter:: What's Your Animagus Form?? (with pictures!)
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You're Most Like The Season Spring ...

Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.

Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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I actually think I'm more of a mix of winter, spring, autumn. http://quizilla.com/cgi-bin/result/list/list.pl

Dreams- HP on the brain

Dreams

As far back as I can remember,

First it was something about the Dursley's. I think that I was Harry with Draco and Snape and for some odd reason, we were all stuck at the Dursley's. Snape and Draco were very OOC like they had all gone through some harboring trial together. The Dursley's house was a lot different than it really was, and the three guys were in an empty room upstairs. They had been locked there or something while at the Durley's and had to spend the night there so they pulled out the bed, only to realize that it was not nig enough for all three of them, they pulled it uver to a desk so one of them would have to sleep on the desk. It was very odd in a sadish way.

Then there was something about a school, I was in a new school and somehow had new relatives who I didn't know. I rememember that I was wearing some interesting clothes, like maybe really big brown boots and a short skirt and a sweatshirt, standing out for what everyone else was wearing. I remember making friends or aquaintices with some girl's and something about lunch. I was called out of a language class to go see an administrator, who was also my new uncle or something. He seemed as if he was used to be given a hard time by kids. I waited in the hall until he was done with the student before me. When I sat down, he had a chicken sandwhich with lettuce, onions, ketchup, pickles ect on it and asked me what I usually liked on my sandwhich, ready to take off anything I didn't like to be the template of what I would recieve for lunch everday. His hands were seperating the onions, spreading them out because the fast food places always do a terrible job when putting anything together. I told him that it was fine the way it was but that I might not always eat it and I was about to go Vegetarian and I really needed whole wheat bread instead of the white patty.


Then there was something else... and then I was Harry in an orchestra. I had a violin in my hand and was playing, even though I have no idea how to play the violin- but it was magical. I think Dumbledore came in to be the conductor and I was a little frightened of him, of his power and how he wasn't what he showed the world he was... and then Dumbledore started telling some of the children playing instruments to leave because they weren't right.. but he never asked Harry(me) to leave, of course not because Harry was special...

And then I went to the next class, which was going to be taught by Professor Snape. It was usually taught by Professor Lupin outside because it was always magically sunny and warm outside during the day. I think that the student usually sat in groups in little tents, the first thing Snape did was banish the tents and arrange the chairs with magic to form straight rows. He told the students that he wouldn't be soft like Lupin and that he expected perfection ect, ect and started to teach the children about the subject which was not a usual Hogwarts subject. I think it was a class about insects maybe or maybe it was a DADA class only more involved than the ones in the books..

After class Snape told Harry about a deal they had and let a large spider out to bite Harry and draw blood. He then told him to be in his rooms the next day to hold up his deal. The next day, Harry came to Snape's rooms (which once again were a lot more different than they would ever be) and resolved himself to feed the spider like he said he would. In my dream, Harry could talk to spiders like he could talk to snakes. The spider he was to feed was actually the 'baby' one as Snape had two others, the parent spider and another child spider that was older than the baby that he fed other ways. Harry closed his eyes but very bravely reached out and let the spider land on his arm and crawl up so that it could bite him and feed. Some time later, maybe days when Harry came in to feed again Snape was no where in sight and Harry shaved a little circle on his arm so that the spider could get to his skin better.

Odd dreams.

bo bum be bum

Song of the day: The Strokes: I Can't Win

So we are finally in Atlanta, GA. Fun fun. >.<


Two nights ago I dreamt that I was on a coed HS basetball team for my 10th grade coach. I had no problems running but my muscles were so weak that every time I tried to throw or shoot I just tossed the ball a couple feet away. We all wore those oversized pinnys thingies. I think my bro was on my team I can't remember, but I know that people I used to play with were on it, like Betty.

Three nights ago I think I dreamt about an 800 relay. And other various stuff.

Four days ago I dreamt that I was in my middle school- turned high school and I was rushing around trying to get ready for a basketball game with my 11th grade coach and team. I couldn't find my school locker and by the time I got all my stuff together the team had already left and I ran out a side door, my coach was waiting there in a SUV and I climbed in. I then got one of those uncomfortable lectures about being prepare, being on time and actually wanting to be on the team. I tried to explain to her that I had never had to run from one side of the school to the other with so many books after school. >.<

Five nights ago I dreamt about volleyball. And other various stuff.

Last night I had an interesting dream. There was this woman who kind of reminded me of a novelist female character of Mary Margaret (KF:The LC). For some reason we were in this building, it was mostly empty and we were in one of the first story basement rooms. There was something about a dead body being covered with a sheet and no one was really distressed about it. I understood that it was some detective mystery at that moment so I rewinded back to a time when they were playing poker on a green velvet table in that room. The Woman was some kind of great poker player with a reputation. I fast forwared and found myself in the custody of some kind of army/scientific group. I was lead from outside into some kind of room with some stationary gas tanks painted red and some wide ladders. I was supposed to go do the ladder and stay underground in custody. I remember going underground and there were some medical people there. Somehow I and this other guy (a friend who reminded me of Mathew Rose or that guy who punched a wall) , who came to rescue me or was undercover in the base, managed to help find a different way out through some interesting obstacles. I remember that at least two people followed us and tried to catch us but didn't wish to harm us. They had energy weapons that looked like the kind the aliens use in StarGate SG 1. They didn't shoot at us and I remember climbing up a ladder to the top of a tall, flat thing and the trying to climb down the other side. I think that we were trying to get away before someone could do experiments on or interogates us.

Ho hum...

Music: Depeche Mode

Dream last night:

I made a super CD and I gave it to a teacher I used to have like my old Phych teacher and he had a classroom with a lot of plants on the third floor. I was just visiting or something so I gave him the CD (or maybe I was chekcing on it?) It was playing an Adiemus song and the song broke up so I checked it. It was in a star shape instead of a circle and it was falling apart. I think it was made up of unbaked, flat, dry clay. I remeber placing a broken bit (where the song was) back onto the CD and hoping that it would work long enough to listen to it.

Then there was something about a bus.

Then I was in CA with my family visiting my grnadmother at church. It wasn't really CA though... felt more like an alternate dimension. I remember some meeting and they were assigning callings or something and wanted to take pictures.. a shadow bulliten box on the wall had sugar (maybe peanut butter) cookies in different shapes for people to order for the Merrie Miss girl club thingy, I admired the first 3 or 4 (There was one shaped like an egg!) before I was pulled away.

I remember walking through some corridors and opening a door that lead to the outside, something about a barrel that I had to move in front of the door to close it but it didn't work or something.

HOL Sorting Hat

You have been sorted into Ravenclaw
Your score in the four houses
Gryffindor: 53 points
Hufflepuff: 64 points
Ravenclaw: 125 points
Slytherin: 44 points

dreams

Music for today: Adiemus


Yesterday I dreamt about flying... or maybe floating. I was in a new large house and I stayed up at night, floating. And then I traveled around the house and found my mom to prove to her that I could fly through air. I remember floating through a Star Trek styled aberetum (can't spell- Plant room with flowers). A slightly disturbing dream simply because I don't know how to really turn it on or off and I'm always afraid that I won't be able to stick back to normal gravity once I start, and that also that I wouldn't be able to get it to work ever again.


Last night I had some weird dream about the almost-teenaged boy who slide bettween realities (like the show Sliders). He picked up two friends and they landed in a reality (most were similar to his normal one) where he had died when he was younger and his parents didn't know who he was. His father saw him and his friends out on the front yard and invited them in and stuff and they talked and then he decided to drive the kids to school (which they certainly didn't want for a number of reasons: most notedly because they don't exsist at the school they claimed to go to.) I remember that they had planned to use some instant transportation device to go somewhere before the dad decided to drive them to school. Then off of a book of sets of characters the skunk or maybe the dog characters (there were about 10 of them in a set) somehow got selected and came down and made the kid's hair grow until he had this big brush of black hair on his head and most of his face... I remember that he wasn't happy that these guys had come by to bug him and he was scared that his Dad (who didn't really know who he was anyway) wouldn't recognize him as the kid from before. The characters were kind of 2d in a 3d world and floated around, calling him 'kid' or 'lil bro'. Weird.

Then my brain got all weird and there was something about coloring books... buying Precious Moment coloring books at the store with my mom and a bunch of other stuff I can't recall.

There was something about being in my old old house again... I think I pulled up the flat grey carpeting and loosened the bare wood rectangle around the left window... everything was surrounded by frames of wood. There was something about computers, and transfering Japanese music with Jessica, she gave me song a long time ago and I was giving it to her back without knowing that she had been the one to make it and such. Then there was something about Kelly, she saw me with my other friends and thought that I had other best friends, but I put my arms around her and said 'you are my dearest and bestest friend' and then everything was ok. I think I was preparing for a sleepover?

music music music

I love Rufus Wainwright.


He is so awesome. I love all his songs. :) I've been basically listening to nothing but for the last week.

past dream

Just wanted to write this down so I don't forget.


It was a track dream. I was back in SC with the old team, perhaps just visiting. I remember that they were going to do a replay race in a sort of club event.. it had lots of teams, but it all felt very 'practice-ish'. I remember sitting on a couch to watch the relay or something, or maybe I was talked into particpating without even knowing it? For whatever reason, the track wasn't on the track- it was on the track but when you came around the far side, you ran off the track onto the grass to complete a loop through the couch (passing the baton at the couch or something). Very odd. I remember that Arione had run off with the baton as 1st or 2nd on a 4x4 relay and she went to pass it to a new boy (he seemed like a middle school kid, maybe a small freshman?) and somehow someone passed me a baton! I guess instinct kicked in because I got up off of that couch and started running. I was a little surprised and unsure because I hadn't been sprinting in awhile and wasn't warmed up or anything but I gliding around the track and passed the new kid (which surprised some people >.<).

I guess I decided that I didn't want to simulate hitting the wall or the last 100 meters of an awful race because the next thing I remember was going to some sort of track banquet with 1st Sarge, some runners and lots of grownups in a very expensive calssy house. With chandeliers. Maybe we were just visiting? I rememebr some of those books filled with life savers rolls at the end, someone had them on a silver tray and someone else told me I could have some. It was interesting.

blah blah

We've just been packing and stuff lately. Planning to move to Georgia in a few weeks I think.

Not much has been going on. I've mostly been working on my website. Lots of dreams but I haven't felt like spending time writing them down. Last night's was an interesting one though.

I think that it was influenced by the stories I've been reading like Snape's Vocation and A Year Like None Other.

For some odd reason it started with me and James and my mom stranded back at our old old house (the one I grew up in), waiting to move to Georgia. We just had a few things with us, a couple beds and stuff.

And that's where it got weird, it's like a cross between the characters from those two stories took over the dream and in a smiliar place, or more like a bungalow, Snape and Harry were chilling for the summer. At night, Snape kept parentally reading classical literature to Harry or reading out quotes like they were treats or something. o.O And then he told him to go to bed. There was something about flying on a hang glider or something and at first Snape said he couldn't do it, then said yes because he didn't want the porch or 4 other different big things around- his usual sarcastic manner. Then there was something about Neville... I think Harry was feeling a little bad for Neville because Neville was stuck at his grandmother's and couldn't try out this hang gliding spell or something. Then Neville came to stay or something... (S's Vocation)

Then I think I was myself... I vagely recall playing in a cool attic and then cleaning the stairs while mom and James were packing or doing something in the kitchen. I went backwards down the stairs facing the top and it was like some sort of hidden space appeared.. like you could only see somethings if you travel and look in the right direction. Well I found an Easter basket covered with some napkins. I carried it back up to the kitchen and it turnedd out to be a tray of big large chocolates covered in coconut stuff and stuff like that with the large gumdrop material made bunnies... I had a dream that I got such a thing from the Christinsen's around Easter time and now this one was the one my brother got that he just left at the bottom of the stairs because he couldn't eat the chocolates. I was happy and was wondering if they were still good to eat. :} I think that they were okay caus ethey tasted alright to me, in any case I don't think I much cared. those large gumdrop sculpted bunnies were a real masterpiece though, with eyes and tails and whiskers sculpted out of different kinds of candies.

I still can't get over the fact that Snape was reading Harry bedtime stories... from classical literature. o.O

Look, dreams.

Music: Rufus Wainwright - Natasha
 
Dreams
 
A short while ago I dreamt that I had gone back to the house I grew up in... that it had been remodeled and certain areas of the folige and trees had been torn down. I took either a seed of a baby baby tree and planted it in a big pot. Last night I dreamt that I was there again... the area that used to be closest to the road where that blind turn for cars had been shoveled into.. to create a low flat area for a sidewalk as well as getting rid of that blind turn. Trees all over the property had been chopped down, torn up. Rich wet dark brown earth was everywhere. I was of course sad as I had loved those trees. I remember looking at that pot that had the baby tree I had planted in it before.. it had grown a lot. The roots were almost overspilling the pot, yet there were inproportianate with the trunk and branches as they were barely taller than I. I remember looking at that tree and thinking about planting it into one of those rich brown dirt holes where the larger ones had been. I remember looking at the other house- the one story red house that was for two apartments.. I remember looking at a large cupboard and studying how the left side that at one point had a tree there, the crack between the floor of the room and the floor of the cupboard gaped with earth or very very old wood and a brown grey smooth trunck rose out of it.. it dodn't go to far though. The top had been cut off many years ago, I assumed, so that it was barely as tall as the room. I understood that the reason it was still there was because it would have been too much work to chop it all out.
 
Then there was something about the boy next door.. I dreamt about him a lot this week. This time I think that I was looking through the glass patterned glass at the blurs that were his family as they sat down to dinner.
 
Then something about school. There was a large complex and my team was above ground. Late at night I was on something.. a hover craft? A scooter? a floating foam pad, perhaps a tricycle? I navigated the halls and darkened corridors in the complex.. and below ground for hours, floating with the power of my mind. I remember below ground.. yellowish walls and pipes, sliding doors and what seemed like an endless maze. I just explored and floated on. I finally came to what looked like an underground gym.. another team was working out and I felt that I might have been on enemy territory yet no one noticed me. Perhaps they thought that I belonged since I was backwards- awake when others would have been asleep. I looked at one of those padded inclinded weight pullup/squat machines and floated further in the room. I stopped next to what looked like a backless foam chair, which really was an exercise machine and did some squat thing on it, while watching the other team and coach go about their bussiness. After that, I tried to float around looking for the way back up. I floated for hours, going around in circles in this complicated maze.
 
Finally I made it back up to the ground level. It was breakfast time. A girl from below was there and she recognized me. She hung around me and we sat down and talked and ate with others from below and from other areas... no one from my area was around. I finally had to go to practice so I did. It was outside, running on the grass grounds of this school.  My coach came up to me.. asked me how I was, did I have a good rest? At first I was afraid that he knew that I'd been awake all night, being freindly with the enemy but his smile didn't waver so feeling deceitful I said that everything was great, yes I had a restful evening.
 
He let me go and I went back to the ground floor main food area. The girl was still there, we walked to the right side and sat down at a table. She was talking to two boys. I looked at some candies on a table behind us. Something about mini colored chocolates in the shape of fruit.. maybe vegetables. Differnt packages had different kinds in them: a whole mix, one mix with two things maybe something brown and something orange.. one was maybe pink, white, red and chocolate coloured... I knew enough that the best flavoured had already been boughten..

long time no see

Well I know I haven't posted in awhile. Truth is, I just haven't wanted to spend anytime typing up stuff to post. :P I weighed myself today: 131 lbs. It's okay. I need to get down below 125.
 
Nothing much has been going on, I've been helping some people write, and worked on writing with people but I'm at a standstill wih one story since I need to get to the library before I continue. I also have been working on my website and a yahogrou_p. (don't want this blog to come up pn any searches for that.)
 
I've also been having a church friend come over every weekend. She's been over 3, maybe 4 weekends. We play N64 and walked to the movies once and basically have dinner before driving her back to her apt. ^_^ She's great fun.
 
Been having some interesting dreams, but mostly same old same old.
 
Last night I dreamt that I was in a high school.. in a math class. The teacher was trying to explain why 4/6=7/8 or something dumb that really didn't make sense.  I remember that I was sitting on the irght with a group of friends and I was working on something.. like maybe a flat computer screen pad and I think that I was swinging on a swing chair instead of the usual chairs. When I finally bothered to look up I noticed what dumb thing the teacher was trying to teach us and when she asked if anyone had any questions only I and another person raised our hands. It was the classic example of people being too afraid to speak up, since after she explained it againand asked if we understood, more people (most of the class) said that they didn't. I was lead to believe that it had something to do with rounding up and division, but we were in what felt like an algebra class learning about fraction equalivants so it didn't really work. I think that this was my brain just wanting to learn some more math.
 
The school bell rang and I was hungry. I looked at the clock- it was stuck somewhere around 8 am and I was worried that that meant that we had to go out to eat breakfast/lunch and come back to school. I asked the teacher while everyone else walked out and luckily she said that it was 3:30. I then walked out, following someone who looked like Zach S (he's like 6 yrs younger than me?)  who was wearing a leather outfit. It was raining outside. I chased after him with my leather sandal clog things o.O to warn him that he would get wet and ruined but he just ignored me, walked on and once outside, stopped at a blacktop 1/2 basketball cout to shoot around with his brothers. I thought that I needed to go to track practice. I suppose that any day after school with rain (spring) means track to me. o.O I then spotted two pools.. swimming pools with only a foot or so of water on the deep side where some kids were playing on floating things in. I wanted to go over there and tell them to get out, because I was a big kid, but decided that I didn't want to act as a bossy prefect so I let them be.

Just a simple article.. about NJ

http://www.jhu.edu/~newslett/03-30-00/Features/3.html

Quzza!

I gacket this off my bro's new LJ. o.O

You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.


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Windowless Airliner

A blogish post.
http://www.halfbakery.com/idea/Windowless_20airliner

I liked the comment about the glass plane..
I think that watching the plane taking off would be great fun! I remember that my brotehr and I commented on this when we flew on a 747 a few years ago.

Dreams, Basketball and Dolls

I dreamed that I was on a basketball team. The first day of practice. I tried to do a standing layup shot.. and missed. So I tried and tried again and again and still missed. I was perplexed and puzzled. It was the easiest shot on the whole court and I used to be able to hit them with 100% accuracy. I think that Shannon was my rebounder and she didn't say anything, just chased after the balls. I shot and missed again. Grr. The coach moved me to a flatter angle, tryingto make it easier I suppose, but I know that that shot only makes it harder.. o.O


The next part of my dream I was a some short of large store. I was looking at an aisle of toys and trying to pick up Christmas presents for everybody. My family was wandering around the store too. I was looking at some colorful wind chimes and trying to pick out something nice for my cousins and Grandma. I'ma bit of a perfectionist so although I had several possibilities in my arms already, I was still searching for the perfect gifts. I thought about making cupcakes and placing 6 inch christmas trees on top made of icing, and how I could possibly mail them without the icing smushing, falling off or turning into mush. My mom came by and said everyone wanted to leave and that I had spent enough time there. I walked over to the checkout line (odd because it didn't lead out of the store, it was horizontal. And I payed for my purchases but was annoyed to realize that I had lost a wad of money, like maybe $22. I still had enough money so I paid and we exited the store.

We got into a large truck thingy, filled with more belongings needed on a trip. We were going to a Disney World type place on the North East. We were going to stay at someone's hotel house. We stopped at the house and unloaded some things, then went to the church to find some people. Kelly was there and some other kids. I walked into a room that had the same dimensions as the nursery. Kelly was too busy playing some Neopets game and doing an essay in the computer to come with me to our new cool place. My twin-sized mattress was on its side in the corner with some Victorian patterend sheets half on it. I looked under a sink in the middle of the room, finding some Wendy's that I had left there. Someone said "Ew." I had to aggree.. the ice in the soda had melted. There was something about dolls that I can't remember.

Somehow I found myself back at the store. I was looking for my money, someone had moved the asile I had been down back, showing the grate and that below the floor was another level. Someone commented that people had been loosing money in this store for years. Someone else was moaning about their lost money. I searched through the grate and found some money, which I snatched up. I could see that it had a $10 so it really wasn't mine so I wandered down the aisle some more. A woman hovered around me, a man found a dollar and I ignored him.. I spotted another fold of cash and I snatched that up like lightening too. The woman tried to get it too, but was too slow and whined she I got it first. I could tell that it was a large amount, but I had not found my lost wad of money yet so I kept searching.

I finally gave up my search, thinking that I had found much more than I had lost and approached the cashier. Maybe I was buy a little doll or something. I felt that I was on some sort of game show and i unfolded my wads of money, I did not know how much I had. The fist was 20 something, the next wad had a 100 dollar bill. Everyone gasped in excitement. I paid for the doll and put the money away. As we walked past some display aisles of large toys I thought about buying my brother one of those large wooden car sets.. the ones with the mini cars or train pieces on tracks and bridges. Or buying some Barbie dolls for future kids, the faces always change to match the times.. I then thought about some k'nex or lego pieces, but decided not to buy anything today. As I was waking up, I thought that I should put it in the bank.




Did I ever write that dream about a giant slide and Disney character dressed people? How I was stuck on a slide hiding while other people/kids went down it (including mermaids) and didn't want to go down this 50 ft thing, but fell down it by accident? it was the one with everyone beaming to a place in an empty amusement park... something about a locker room and a nice dining area.. I must have felt as if I was undercover or one of the few people who knew what was really going on, because I remember being on some team and talking through headgear... and trying to avoid some adults.

What about that one about the dark house and mirrors? And the big bathroom? and how the rooms changed around.

Dreams of Unicycles

Dreams

I was at some sort of school and there was an afternoon function going on.. perhaps a fair. I remember some balloons outside, and as I walked through a crowd in the front, Jessica (the one from HS XC) approached me and told me that they were giving away free unicycles, and that I had to get one. She then mentioned something about Sarah being around and we said goodbye. I really wanted a free unicycle. I came across them and there were only two color: a pastel lime yellow and a bright pink. I think that I picked out a bright yellow one. I think that I placed it somewhere.. perhaps left it against a tree or something. Then I think that I talked to Heather.. about Spongebob or Squidworth or something?
She was her usual uningaging self. o.O (jk) I then wandered inside the building and into a crowded classroom.

They were having some sort of lesson, that I had walked into the middle of and I couldn't leave. I really didn't want to join in but they made me take a piece of paper and a pen/pencil and write something down. Finally, it ended and everyone was about to leave. I think that I opened the door to the next classroom, looking for my brother. He was in there and I asked him if he had gotten a unicycle too. He hadn't, so I wanted to show him my unicycle. I went out to get it but it wasn't where I had left it. I decided to get another one, but just then a Principal walked by in a crowd and I overheard him saying that they hadn't managed to buy enough unicycles and that they had run out of yellow ones. I was sad.

I decided not to take a second cycle because they didn't have enough for everyone. I then looked into my (nonexistant o.O) purse and found my yellow unicycle! Yay! It had been shrunken. o.O James walked by and I told him to go get a pink one. I think he managed to get one, and then I traded unicycles with him. We then unicycled home, down a hill.

The next part I remember is something about Coach Russel. I think that I gave him a pair of sandals for the Forth of July or for a birthday present in the summer or something. o.O Somehow.. the team got into different cars and drove away.. some went into a carwash/auto mechanic place. I think that I helped Russell clean his car out.. only I overdid it and found 6 pairs of shoes. I think that I annoyed him with that because he had no place to put them all.

Then I wandered away.. I sat down somewhere and was given a pile of newspaper wrapped stuff. This part is a little freaky. I unwrapped to inspect things no bigger than a rectangular tissue box. Wooden figurines and dolls.. but some were mumified miniture people. Ew. I was rather unsettled the first time I unwrapped a mumified person. Not fun, but it was my job so I continued. Then some native tribal people (once again no bigger than a rectangle shoebox) approached me and asked if I was going to finish soon. You see, they wanted them for their parade. I thought that it was rather odd to want to have mumified humans in a parade for children, but respected their culture and told them that I would finish soon.

That's all I really remember.

Hmm.. :)

My mom just mentioned that my uncles and grandfather had gotten degrees from Ivy League Universities.

What a way to unintentionally make someone feel less adequate. lol

Oh well. I'd just settle for whatever so I can make money to learn forever. Take a million classes...
Hmmm.. :)

Oh Captian, my Captain

Song of Goodness: Moby - Flower

I was thinking about this the other day. If I ever were a Captain I'm sure that I would quite overdo it. I'd make up fun workouts, like a scavenger run. I'd bring popsicles to practice on the hottest days, and every Monday have a team night where everyone did mandatory stretching and shin exercises and I feed then whole wheat pasta for dinner and spelt rolls. Dinner would be followed by a team moral boosting time (team chats about non-sports stuff and fun quotes) followed by Colloidal Silver and iron supplements. My room/apartment would have a wall with spots for everyone to make and tape up their faces to feel as if they quite belonged there. And team "gifts" they gave each other wouldn't cost anything except for the last one. No one really has any money and gift giving every week could stress some people out.

And the second anyone thought that they were getting sick, I'd pour liquid echinacea goldenseal down their throats three times a day. (You're really supposed to take it every three hours but not even I can stand the stuff that much!)

I'm such a minder.
^ That's British for babysitter.
Or am I just overzealous or manic?

Mama Jan ^_-

yuk

Have you ever placed a piece of bread in your mouth, only to realize that it tastes funny, and then turn over the bag the bread came from to see a big patch of green mold on the bottom?

And then you try to spit the mouldy bread out..

No?

Well, it happened to me this morning. Yuk yuk yuk...

Random

Song of Goodess: Strauss - Emperor's Waltz

Ah, I've been neglecting my blog lately, but only because I've been writing a little.

I also visited JK Rowling's new website. Very nice. :) I only managed to get 3 things for my scrapbook though. Thanks to WishWeaver's FF Yahoo Group for all the hints.


James came in here today.. and said that Mom said something weird... apparently she think that my music tastes have changed. O.o As if now I am listening to better music. Um? I don't think so.. I've always liked classical music a little.. just because I can hear it better now and love listening to is more doesn't mean that I have completely turned off Rammstein, Marilyn Manson, Kenna or anything Spanish. o.O

And here I will input my fab new quote: "I have sen the future of music, and it is called shuffle." It's from a New Yorker fact or something.. I can't find it now but it's in a post for this month..


James said that she now thinks that if she gives me a makeover that I will go out and do things. To which I could only respond by saying: Ahahaa...

Give me a car and I'll go out and do things...

Actually... if I could ever get over this internet addiction, fanfiction addiction and music addiction I would go out and meet people.. but then I'd have so much fun I'd probably never come home...



Why do parents always think that they can change their (older) children?