Dreams, a very long one

The very long dream I had last night:

First I was with some sort of group, maybe a team because it was full of young women my age.. I think that we came out of a movie theatre and went to the building direcly on the left side, which was an old fashioned restuarant. I can remember the double glass doors going in and the U shaped main room, with booths around the sides. The entrance was more on the left side and directly beyond that at the far wall was a door leading to the bathrooms. I think that there were some tables in the middle. I can't remember much... sitting down with different people... going outside behind it, it was a green field and doing something with other people.. maybe running around to different classes in the late evening (it was dark). I remember a hot air balloon being set up or maybe being set down? The balloon part was in the air... and I remember trees off to the right side in some sort of area and something was over there, maybe a class, and some big building in the back of the field, really far away.

And then I remember being at a community pool. Maybe. I'm a little confused. I can remember being at some strange type mall place, one story with a group of people. I think that I was with an Asian gitl who I either knew or just met. We were friends butI didn't really know this girl. I think we split up with the group.. I can remember looking through this one shop, it had like white curtains as walls and maybe furnityre on low display stages, maybe metal shelves.. I think that they sold big lamps or pillows. The air in the room felt like it came outside, it was a cool summer day, maybe a cool spring, very comfortable temperature. I remmeber some woman working there in a beige business suit came up to us and asked if we need help but I think that I was anxious about something... I remember we walked away and I think I bought a chinese yoyo or maybe a wooden stick? I think my brother was supposed to be with me but he wasn't, maybe he left? So my friend and I walked around, I think we were trying to use a cellphone to find a ride? We exited the shop through the left back and ended up in some large hallway, it was a utilitarian hallway like it was mostly used for moving goods. It was dark but light came in like maybe from a door that was open... I remember we went left down the hall way, turned left at the bend and I think maybe we met some people we knew or maybe she knew?

I can remember getting into some large and crowded van filled with young adults (I think that they were all Asian, Korean I think) and trying to fit this very long wooden pole in it somehow without hitting anybody. I can remember the outside of the shopping center, maybe we walked outside and got in and out of the van there? I think we got in the van to visit but declined a ride home and then stood outside waiting for someone and stressed out because no one came to get us. I didn't even know the girl I was with but she was very in charge type person, maybe bossy. It was very weird.

I remember being at the community pool along the left side. It was a cloudy morning, maybe darkened early-mid morning and kind of hot. I can remember the towels and lawn chairs laying open on the grass. I think that I was wandering around either by myself or following some people. I remember going through the opened building behind the grass, it was a dark wood thing...

And then I think the dream changed to have some sort of contests going on. I remember being on some kind of fear factor extreme stunts type family thing. It was sunny, and I remember wearing a bright yellow bathing suit and I was very tan and I was harnessed to some sort of rope rigging thing, this big rope thing was over the pool and four or five members of your family would be hooked at the bottom of this rigging and when the whistle or loud noise went off you would try to climb to the top... and this yellow hook thing would be chasing you up it. For every two rungs you went up it would follow you too and try to catch the rop that connected you to the rigging... you had to cut it off in a way that you got your rigging free and didn't cut the important part and then the hook would fall, but come back after you... I remember that I was one of the last people on the rigging and I got to the top without any problems, maybe not even with the hook getting me and I was almost done, one more rung and I could cut myself off and get free and win. The time was counting down and then the hook got me and I was trying to cut it off with a knife, to find the part thatI could cut without cutting my rigging, trying to search through the jumble of rope, and I started to cut and almost had it but the whistle or kaxon sounded and I was out of time and I was lowered to the ground. My family was a little upset that I was so close. They asked what happened and I said that I was so close.

I think that I might have been on a family where I had a twin and we were both blond, or a family with twin blond girls went after us and my family went first but "I" was with the other girl. I'm not sure. Anyways, another family went after us and I went back to the twoel and chair area to sit and wait. Another family that was going to go next or something was nearby and the young girl had I think soiled herself maybe or maybe needed to get dressed into some diving suit harness thing and so she and someone else and maybe my little sister, a little girl who just appeared but was young too, started to get up to go to the bathroom/changing room and i think I followed because I wanted to help or maybe spy and see what was going on. I think I was concerned but I was acting all spy like, trying not to be seen or spotted.

Then the last family went on the rope harness thing and as I understood it, the little girl I was following was a member of one of the first families, and THE family in the lead and they were going to start the next competition so I was trying to watch and learn to see what it was or something. Some tv host guy was there and getting them all settled by the side of the pool. There was this big airplane faceing sideways away, I think that it was in the water maybe and the father was placed inside it somewhere. Four members of the family were placed around it and the front propellor of this plane started.. It was a big plane like a commercial one but the wings were low and it wasn't THAT big, I think the tail also was low. And I think the water turned into cement or soemthing because I know that it had wheels and now a water landing type thing. The little girl was at the rear right of the plane, someone was before her. The TV announcer guy explained the challenge, that every member of the family would have to get onto the plane and the plane would have to stop. I think that there was someone else poileting the plane so the father would have to attack him or something to slow it down and stop it.

Something marked the beginning of the challenge and the plane started to move forwards and everyone yelled at the family members to run. The little girl started chasing after the plane, trying to catch up to the low right wing but it was obvious that she wouldn't be able to do it. I remember figuring it out that the father would have to slow the plane down soon so that she could actually cath up to it before they could stop it.

We all started running, surrounding the plane and runnign with the little girl with a pack of horses. I remember someone going "Keep going sweetheart" to the little girl when she started to lag and looked like she was going to give up. All she had to do was keep going at the pace of the plane. It was going pretty fast, maybe too fast for her but i think that she could do it. I remmber running along and we were all running and we were going really fast but it felt "easy", an "easy" pace that you can hold on to for along time and I was escatic that I could run like that. We ran and ran and ran and I was getting worried that somethign was going wrong, they had to slow the plane down soon the girl wasn't making it, I think someone picked up the girl and carried her or something as they ran and we kept running and running. We ran on some grass fields I think, then maybe some different ground. it was soft, I can't remember if I was barefoot or wearing my running shoes. Bit we kept going. I think that we went for at least 40 minutes at this killer pace, and it was like we couldn't stop.

And I think that the plane was in water then, and suddenly we came up to this dead end, a cliff. Only it was more like a waterfall and we couldn't stop. I felt the resolve decision to keep going. follow it off the cliff and I felt other people do it around me. I think someone nodded and voice our thoughts and as we ran they went "Yes, it is possible [to survive] you just have to hit the water at the right time of the air craft." But then i was running and jumping off of the cliff/waterfall and the plane was falling and we were falling and falling and i think I jumped too soon and I hoped I wouldn't die, but I turned down and dove into the water and i was okay and I came back up for air. All around me were other people too, and the plane was stopped in the water.

I remember heading back towards the edge or maybe a ledge surrounding the pool. I swam towards the direction we had come from and people started following me. We got out of the pool and no one really knew what to do. I think I always knew that this was a test and that we would have to find our way back. I remember there was a little boy, maybe a baby who had come with us and was floating kind of on a cloud next to the ledge. I think that I was very worried about him, he had very pale yellow hair and I remember pulling his cloud up after me as I figure out the best way to climb up this wall with a strange pattern of ledges sticking out. People followed me example, some followed the way I went or found their own. We came near the top and turned right towards the opening of the dam/waterfall. It was inside now, the opening was there and very big but you could go in it. Only there was something blocking the walking are, any area that you could walk and the water area was moving very swiftly. We seemed stuck.

I remember finding a way up, maybe moving a ledge that was on the side up and over to the left and climbing up on it. There were some small ufo shaped things, white, floating around the corner. They were sectioned like a pizza only 6 slices and some people were on them already. I remember handing the baby boy up to some people who I knew would make sure he was safe and then I got ready to jump on the ufo thing. It was moving around and I waited for it to come closer and it came closer than I had hoped. I think I jumped on it and landed on my belly but the top stopped spinning. The side I was on didn't have any people on it. I think we used it as a type of stepping stone.

I remember getting on the side again, higher. And it was made up of bleachers, tall wooden bleachers that seemed to go on forever. We climed and walked along then, back in the direction we had come to. I think that I was some sort of leader, unofficial but in this dream I knew it.

I think we had to go through traveling ouzzles, like find ways to get through things.

The next part I remember was getting into some sort of building. It seemed that things kept popping up in our pather that weren't there before and we had to get through the building to get back. It was bright, like it was daytime. I remember that as we traveled to the back, this room was filled with food. Dry food like boxes of cereal and microwavable popcorn only in huge puches and stuff like that. There were three open doorways that looke dlike they lead to different worlds. There was a door on the side back that was small, like it was a little room/closet that they used to have in older buildings, and I opened it, searching for a way out. There was what looked like a electricity box on the side wall and two small black things that looked like walkie talking only they had red digital count down faces. I thought that they were bombs and i think that I took a risk and hit them together to see if that would set the bomb off. Nothing happened and realizing how stupid that was, I put the things down and exited, calling someone by name who I knew was an electrician or expert to see what he thought of it.

Meanwhile, I started going through the supplies while the people behind me just looked. The doorway on the left lead to a green field with an apartment building behind it. The one on the right lead to what looked like the inside of a building that looked like a home-turned church classroom area. I don't remember that the middle dorrway lead to. I started to throw food supplies through the doorways, splitting them up with the intention of splitting the group up. i had no idea what would happen in the doorways, I wanted to send the babyboy/little girl through the left door but I was afriad that there would be monsters or dangerous dinosaurs waiting out of sight. It couldn't be completely safe and that made me anxious.

I think that maybe I sent everyone through and that I went through the middle doorway.

Next thing I can remember (I think the dream just changed) I was on a high speed bus. I think that it was a school bus and an older man was driving it. There was a spot at the back that was sort of like a second driving area like the way some trains are set up.

Something was going on, I think that we were maybe trying to get away from something. There was this really scary neon pink monkey thing with very sharp teeth clattering all over the outside of the bus trying to get in. It freaked me out in a scary way. I think that it got in once or twice but it was pushed out. I remember that near the back there was a type of door with a latch that was loose, like it could open. There was a middle aged, deaf black man in the back (diagonal fronm the front's seat) drivers seat doing something necessary, I don't know what, maybe making the bus ride out the big bumps so that we don't fall apart? He was doing something important and difficult, but anyways he gave me a look like he knew that that latch had to remain closed.

I was terrified that the monkey would come in. I went down to hold it closed and I realized that I would have to use something to hold it for me, anything. I racked my brain trying to come up with something when I noticed that I was chewing a large piece of gum. I knew that the lady/girl next and behind me would get upset if I used the gum, thinking that the only reason why I was taking it out was to make it seem like I needed it to svae the day when I really just wanted gum and I was breaking rules. Well I took the gum out of my mouth and placed it over the latch, it held it but it didn't look like it would hold it indefinitely and the monkey thing was tricky and could jiggle it until it opened. So I held out my hand for the snotty young woman to place her gum in it. I think that the fact that I was serious to let someone put their gum in my hand proved the point that I wasn't breaking the bus rules for no reason at all. And I really needed that gum. With both pieces, the latch held.

I got up and walked towards the front of the bus and on the way I noticed that I girl on the right was sleeping and had her window wide open! Stupid! Grrr. I was terrified that the monkey would get in. But I think that I just gave in since I couldn't smack the girl and demand that she close her window because I didn't have the right.

Anyways, next thing I know, the driver is incapacitated or something and we needed the black, deaf man to drive, so he did, which left a necessary driving seat at the back which we needed to fill. And the monkey was there, concentrating as it handled the jarring controls. Well whatever, we really needed someone to take care of it and the monkey was so I let him/it be. I remember that there was a woman near the back on the right sitting, maybe talking, In front of her was a pair of twins. There were other people, not a lot but the bus wasn't empty. In the front left there was a little boy, he was injured and lying down in the space that took up two seats. He was at waist height and had very light yellow hair and light eyes. A very special, nice smart boy. I think that he was about 7 years old. There was a woman with blond hair sitting behind him, kind of pushy and someone who I would not normally like. I think that she was his aunt, but she and the boy and the boy's mother (the woman sitting in the back) had done something to try and get off the bus (I thin kmaybe we were trying to get the bus to stop?) or do something... anyways, the boy was dying and I felt a sense of emotional friendship and fondness for the woman and she smiled and she wasn't that bad since she had actually done that and they were about to die.

I remember sitting next to the boy and saying how brave he was.. I think that maybe he had a broken right leg or was pierced with some malevolant magical energy or something. He was lying with his head to the front of the bus. I remember petting his hair.

I think that I became Harry then, and the boy was dying, such a wonderful biy and I was so sad. The boy said "Harry, I want you to have all mylands and buildings and stuff when i die becaus eyou deserve them." and he was such a nice boy but I, Harry, told him that I thought that they would legally have to go to members of his family.

So the boy quietly pulled out two dolls (I think that they were lying on him or maybe they were in a box to under him kind of in the aisle covered in legal papers, and the boy said "Then I want you to have my favourite dolls. You''ll take good care of them." They were maybe 6-7 inches tall and beige Bert and Ernie and Harry(me) felt his eyes water a little as he placed his hand over the hand of the little boy which was holding the dolls. "Okay, Teddy." he choked out and gently placed his other hand on the boy's forehead.

I think that I just lay there, emotionally thinking about the little boy, Teddy was his name, and his aunt, fondly and sadly, loving them.

(It took me over an hour to write this dream out)

Dreams.. again

i've been bad and haven't been writing down my dreams this last month so they will be out of order, missing parts and jumbled.


Last night I dreamt that I was on some young people's army. There were two sides and I remember lining up with a few and being either put to sides or showing sides, we were on a kind of narrow umm I can't really explain what it was... imagine a subway (train) track, how it is below the main level but make it outside and only one train wide with tall buildings on either side that makes it feel enclosed... it was clean too, and not that deep. I remember standing on some railing, which was safe and maybe a neon color. Everything was bright.

I can't really remember what came next... I think someone came, maybe with energy weapons blasting and we scattered behind us in some short alcolve to disapear in the underground... there was something about fighting, some sort of medieval times bar eating place only newer looking and running through it.. something about chnaging into clothes, a uniform that was purple and sparkly and an interesting cut kind of like the blue uniforms on that 2000 leuges under the sea uniform only without the belts and one colour. I wasn't in charge but I was up there and there was a very loose organization, everyone fighting, running.

And then I was on the porch of my old NJ house kind of, we were facing the corner next to the door and the window and I was on a different side of some battle, an older side and kind of filled with different race aliens. I think that we had been defeated or we gave in... I was on the bad "evil" side but I wasn't really bad. I was just on their side. Someone came over, a woman commander I think and said something about how we would be watched, couldn't trusted, gave up rights but had to obey yadda yadda or we'd be killed or given away or something. It was weird.

There was a white, tall dresser on the porch with brass pull handles (two on each drawer) and decorated, exactly like the one I used to own when I was little but the top, shorter drawer (not sure if that was on the one I used to have when I was little) was missing the covering, or maybe the whole drawer. I looked inside and saw the dream catcher, cullender thing. It was in the shape of a small metal cullender, a circle with a metal woven area in the closed cone shape like a net. Only this net part was made up of a black or dark blue cloth with a butterfly pattern on it, the butterflies were golden.

I recalled that the Lord of the evil army had given it to me, as a gift. I wa a loyal part of the "bad" army but I hadn't done anything evil and I was good inside... it was a very interesting position. I reached out for the dream cullender but didn't take it out, I guess maybe because it wasn't mine anymore and my hand could be chopped off for taking it, or maybe because it was a power I didn't want them to know about.

There was a large, rectangular cardboard box but not that tall and held up kind of on an angle to the left with the opening facing me, the tape was taken off and the flap was opened by the other captured people on the "bad" army and a stuffed plushie was taken out, a very large Eeyore or something that looked grey and old. I knew that it was my brother's, only he doesn't have any that large or looking like that, that old and in that position but I felt anxious that it was captured and out in the open to be seen and taken or in the air maybe as well as the other plushies in the box so either I or someone else pushed it back in the box and closed it. And then I think that I had a mission to take the box and crawl with it through some tubes or small hidden corrider (like ventalation shafts only waist high) through the house to get it to the front left ground floor where the other people of the uncaptured "bad" army were in some kind of food bar medieval place to keep the stuffed animals safe. I remember that it was a little awkward since the box was kind of large and I had to crawl or something. I can't remember really dropping it off but I know that it was hidden in the crawl space or maybe moving along some automatic belt but that it was hidden and safe.

It started to rain, or maybe snow and we got lightly covered.

Some woman on the "good" side came back through the back door and I remember bowing and showing a lot of respect or something saying 'We would be most humbled if the good Lord of this most glorious house would allow the moving of this humble captured article of furniture so that it does not get ruined" or something weird like that because I was really anxious that it would get hurt or the magic/power/specialness in it lost or damaged for our side, or just for it in general but I wasn't in any position to make demands when the woamn could chop off my head for any reason. She nodded her head and two big guys either from my side, or from the inside "good" side came out and lifted it up from underneath the top and followed the woamn into the house, turned right and into the back bedroom, which was a larger room filled with Christmas trees on every side, all looking different but of medium size.

There wasn't really enough room for the dresser to be placed against the wall, I gues sthat maybe someone moved a tree over. There was another woman in the room, who I assumed was the one who decorate dthe trees but she seemed like she was in charge or something, maybe a commander or a queen but she was dressed in normal clothes and sitting cross legged on the floor and she had a little toddler girl who was playing in the corner.

I think that she asked me to continue wrapping the decorations on strings around the last two trees so I went and did it. The first tree had the bottom done, it was a thick green covered wire thing with plastic, colourful toys connected to it of christmas bears on sleighs that lit up and moved and stuff like that. I wrapped it around the tree too close together and ran out before I was done, a little over the halfway point so I picked up and connected the next strand which was kind of like extention cord wire and wrapped it around the tree. I did the same to the next tree, it being covered in around two different cords, wrapped so closely together that it was almost WRAPPED around instead of decorated. I finsihed and the woman looked at it and made a laughing comment about how it wasn't supposed to be done "quite that way" and I looked down sleepishly.

I can't remember what happened after that.

(I usually know why I dream what I dream. I usually don't write that part down though, for various reasons. I think that this dream was a direct result from watching the Stargate SG1 episode where they land on a planet full of humans who are training to infiltrate earth and reading Angel fanfiction.)

Robot Jan Hall Monitor

I was a hall monitor at a high school, kind of like my first HS. Only I was half machine, kind of like a borg only good, individualistic and tigh tech brightly colored machine things. I think that my right arm was mostly a type of weapon. I moved around like a machine, very no nonsense and serious like I didn't express or have any feelings. I think that I had metal boots half way up my calves. I think that I might have had someone also a hall monitor who follwed me around.

I remember being asked by a teacher or maybe a principal to check something out. Investiagting something around the Foreign language department.

And then I was like in the past, myself only not a machine in the same year. There was a girl there from the newspaper club trying to interview me, asking all these qiestions that I either didn't know or maybe I didn't want to answer. I think that she knew who I was, but this me actually had feelings. I was in the cafeteria and eating, and then I think i was in line, and this girl pushed me and i got food all over myself. I think that I glared at her. I didn't have any friends around because this me was a secret identity me maybe?

Anyways... I think that this me was attacked in the hallway and shoved into a locked near the foreign language department. And I stayed there for a whole day. I was alright, but I kicked at the locker until someone let me out. And it was weird cause i think that robot me was under suspicion for putting me, maybe I was the reporter girl? into the locker and locking it.

Wizard theme park

I remember being in some underground parking building, only we were on a level that had a railing that you could see over and below it. I was with a class of people who I used to go to elementry school with only we were all young adults.

I remember this one guy, Brian was either asking me or the teacher something that could be potentially embarassing for me but I didn't mind and just laughed at it.

Then I remmeber that I was helping to set up some sort of amusement park on the grounds of Hogwarts, like Disney Land visiting. I was supposed to set up a security team to walk arond the grounds and make sure that no fights broke out, ect. I was a very in charge person, very serious and taking my responsibilty serious and everyone respected me. I think that I seemed like I didn't have any emotions. I remember that there were like realy steep hills or mabe walls around. I was the lady in charge. Brian was on my team and I remmeber leaving him at the controls of some octupus ride (8 legs spinning boxes of seats around, not really looking like an octupus) to get familiar with the controls. We were all wearing strange robes that were dark colors, not black and were a think material so they seemed to go out around us. They stopped near the floor. I think that we had pointy wizards hats on.

Anyways, everyone knew that I was in charge, like some kind of exulted position, weird. I had my team of usual people and I was training some young newbies as well. We had walkie talkies.

I remember walking around the grounds, watching the set up and conveying orders and setting up routes for each security team under me to patrol. This one young trainess was with me as my partner. I remember walking around some more... I think that we went around some very tall hill next to the lake's edge far from the the fair being set up. I think that I wlked away from my trainee to do some business on a walkie talkie or maybe I apparated into town to get something as a "symbol" for my security teams to wear so that everyone on my team would be recognized as a memeber of authority.

When I came back Draco was taunting my trainee with a few of his guy followers, asking why she was pretending to be under my team or something. She was acting admirably and explaining that she really was even when Draco insulted her and threatened her and told her to run off. Well I came up and asked what the problem was, actually I asked "Ensign *** what seems to be the problem here?" and Draco got the messge. Under my watch eyes he apologized and ran off with his cronies.

I remember apparating back to town into some sort of nickle and dime toy store and looking for something to set my team apart from the visiting students that would be at the fair. They were all going in costume and there was a table with different part hats, one for a dime. Chole, a girl from school was there and getting herself a costume that looked like a muggle police thing. Anyways, I really liked the hats so I picked up several in dark green and blue, maybe other colors and some paper and glitter.

Dobby was there are trying to buy some warrior board game that you could color in and mold or something. It was some important crazy plot twist that he needed it for but he couldn't buy it or maybe he would raise suspicion, so I bought it for him, and then he did something to it that made it special that Harry HAD to get, but the ministry could not find so I then made duplicates of it and stacked them up, so many that the ministry would just give up trying to find it.

Then I apparated back to the side of the lake where my trainee was waiting, this time without any problems. The fair was just about to start so I took the hats and put like name tags in the front full of glitter to set them apart. I remember worrying that the students visiting would not realize that my team were the team since I didn't have anything offical looking. oh well.

I mde myself a hat, and my trainee one and then we set out trying to look for my team to give them hats.

I think that we found a few. The grounds became crowded and the fair was in full swing. Where ever I walked, the crowd parted and my trainee was a little in awe. In one of the walkways, a fight had started with a crowd and I and two other memebers of my team tried to break it up or something.

Can't remember anything after that.

I can't really remember this dream.. it may come back to me later.

All I remmber is being at my old house in NJ, only on that little roof porch, kind of and outside? or maybe inside but there was a room outside on the porch without walls. It was raining and I went indoors, trying to escape the fierce rain and lightening, wind.

I think that there was a vampire(s) there, like maybe Angel pulling himself up to the roof and maybe a friendly demon with redish black skin and wings inside.

I remember waking up and realizing that it was actually raining fiercely outside, which makes sense as to why it was in my dream, the rain drenched air was in my room because the window was open.

Indoor Disneyland

I remmeber being indoors in a type of auditorium like place only there were no seats really. There was a circular dais on the floor with miniture rides, kind of like a circular, moving merry go round. There were walls I think around the walls though, or maybe on half of the room, seperateing the floor to the long, shallow stairs that went up to the back doors. I was there and a family with a little girl was there. I think that the little girl had a literal pig nose, or maybe she turned into it when she rode a ride on the merry go round? Well anyway, there was a woman there like one of those home dealers showing us around.

I remember being told that we would have to look after the place and I went upstairs.
There was a home level full of bedrooms and bathrooms, and each room belonged to a charcter like Minnie mouse and Donald Duck. It was very strange, filled with Disney paraphieila. And each character also had a pet. There were cats everywhere and I was the one to take care of them. The rooms had windows too, I think that one of them had a kitchen with cat food. I remmeber thinking that it was very elaborate for the owners to come up with- everything looked lived in and real like the characters WERE real. It was so weird.

Scary witch dream brooms

Another dream for me to avoid at all costs in the future.

Okay it started okay, I was in a gym that was a cross between my church and my second High school's watching a very large basketball team practice. I think that I saw the girl's team first (I have issues with Girl's Basketball since I used to love it but quit after my Junior year because of injuries and depression) but I kind of ignored them and then the Boy's team came in- There was this really tall guy that I used to know who was practicing his shot. Along the stage (It goes lengthways along the court a coach was sitting with some people and there was a girl there. He asked her if she was playing for the girls' team. She said no, that Volleyball had got her before it. I just decided to ignore all this (in my dreams sports are usually present but I always avoid the bball and volleyball parts unless I KNOW that I'm on a team because I'm not supposed to be on them).

Anyways, I continued down along the edge of the stage and I came across a band, or perhaps I should call it an orchestra. It was large, but they were stacked in a way that they didn't take up much room. While the very loud basketball dribbling, talking, shooting and yelling were taking place on the court, this orchestra set up and began to practice. I sat on a chair, and I guess that the chair was on some weird moving pipe, because as I recognized the song the orchestra was practicing (Something from Swan Lake) I closed my eyes and moved along with it. At some times, the noise was louder than the music, but I followed it along in my head. it was great and afterwards I think that the conductor noticed and said something to me, I can't really remember what, it was probably inconsequential.

Then I was in a group over a darkened city. It felt like the ending to some sort of movie. We were on top of a building, a little girl was there and it seemed like the rest of the group were made out of clay. Floating clay animations. There was a bright orange flat dinosaur, maybe a steggosaurus, who was resting against the side or trunk of a car on the top of this building. I guess that he was a leader and that he was me, because the group was breaking up, saying goodbye and he seemed to decide that he was going to go back to the museum below us and return to his cage/display/box if he could. The dinosaur made some joke about his snout changing all the time (alluding to the scientists changing their minds every few years) and tried to change the clay around his nose to be whatever the last decision was before realizing that it was right the way he unconciously had it because as they (the dinosaurs) were real and living in their clay bodies, they showed the true forms (yikes) before realizing that he was going off of the subject and trailing off...

He then said bye to everyone and asked the little amoeba guy if he wanted to go to or if he was coming with him, but the little amoeba guy/kid said that he was going to go with the little girl (the amoeba guy was so cute, he had a little face with a big smile-maybe the kid drew him or made him out of clay?) and then I kissed him goodbye on his little mouth (platonic I assure you as I was kind of myself by then, not a dinosaur) and then the other clay beings flew off, the little girl's parent came to the car and they all got in and then I, as the dinosaur turned into a little ball and dove down the side of the building to look for a drainpipe at the top or ventilation shaft to get into the building.

I found one and dove in, finding myself at the ground floor of a very spacious room with beige carpeting and lightly coloured walls. I turned into myself, somehow holding luggage and wearing a coat/jacket and saw a computer against a pillar. I (big surprise) went over to it to check my e-mail as if I had been there before and done it before. The opening commercial to get online always had people logging on, and in the exciting exertion of a big "blast" of getting on they were always sweaty so I mused that if I were ever running and sweaty and came into the museum and got caught, I could just explain to the Security guy that "it was just like the commercial" (because I think that only the science personell were supposed to be there and using the comps).

So here's the scary part, then I was down in the basement lab art room (the kind of underground room with small windows near the ceiling to let light in) and I was in a group like Charmed (I've only seen the tv show like once but we wer like ditzy witches) and we were talking to some Professor guy in charge (like Niles from Buffy) about some witch display we did on the roof of the museum and how the curreator was very impressed. There were three or four of us and we all did different types of brooms and put them in the arms of cloth manequins on the roof, I think that I did a straw broom.

The Professor was congradulating us on a good job and one of the young women was sweeping the floor with her broom one last time before dismantling her's (she had to because she used different matierial that she said couldn't stay as a broom somewhere in a closet) and then dream me switched to look through her POV eyes. The broom was study but had a delicate sweeping part, it was curls of hair and I think that we all assumed that it was just a hair broom. But the woman went to a far table and started to dismantle the broom. She pulled off the hair part and set it aside and pulled off the cloth cover and there was the back of a head there, short hair along what was unmistakingly someone's neck/head, you know how the very short hair there always shows that pattern into skin and the two parts that stick out change the shape. Anyways, this was a SKIN and the woman was lovingly and sadly petting it, as only she knew the sacrifice and headaches this person (another woman from the past) had gone through.

So of course by then dream me HAD to know the background story. So then one of the other people there asked about some story that the woman was telling them about a lady from the past and the woman stepped away from her skin hair broom as if to give a monolouge. She said that the woman's name was (some random long title french thing like Elizabether Monealy De Cour) and that she had been kidnapped and tortured or something and that she had been enaged to this guy (enter another long french counding name and title). But that they were happy now and together and the speaking woman's eyes teared up a bit and someone went to go hug her when the forgottem broom started to move.

I turned to look at it in terror and something that looked like a leg of a cloth wrapped mannequin moved. The broom/mannequin sat up and writhed backwards as if in pain and a wrapped head moved up and from it came the most horrifying sound. "You're killling me" it wailed angrily from beyond the grave and I was terrified and sick and it was so awful. We all looked at the first witch who was also in shock because whatever she did, the part of the skin of the person that she had used had been real, it had been alive and dead but cursed but real and it was alive now and in pain and we were Killing It. I don't know what was worse- the fact that it was some malevolant tortured being still alive and able to move who somehow thought it was our thought and could hurt us in some way or that it was actually alive.

Aurgh. I woke up then.

Well if it terrifies you or bothers you, analyize it to death. Nah, I'm not in the mood. I'll just sketch out the main.

I can see the theme of inanimate objects becoming real or alive. One of the baser fears. Fear of magic. Mistakes on the part of someone who had power and didn't know everything or the consequences of what she was doing. Fear of suffering, guilt and reconcilliation from a being that probably deserved it but the people it was most likely to lash out were innocents.

Justice being unserved. With such a freaky, dangerous and sad thing that that was, we'd probably have to burn it alive to get rid of it. There's no way that anyone could call the cops and explain about it, give it a chance to have a real life again. As a vengeful spirit person that would be a bad thing.

Edit: actually this doesn't scare me as much after I thought out thise scenerio. What if I had gone to the past and the only way to return would be to be made inanimate and wait. The person who convinced me would know that "I" the inanimate persion/mummy would last and be found by a museum and I would be there to wake up. So I agree and do it, turn inanimate. Only when I wake up, I realize that someone has skinned me and I freak out.

stuff to write out later

Stuff to write out later:

Jan: I woke up around 7
Jan: I had a weird dream
Jan: I often have dreams like this but not really
Jan: I was in like a high school maybe middle school
Jan: and I had come back
Jan: and the coaches there made me in charge or something
Jan: and I was like responsible for everyone including myself
Jan: and I had to get everyone is shape, even the little freshman who had never ran before
nuClEArTaCH: weird
Jan: and I was SO Out Of Shape
Jan: it was going to be painful
Jan: yeah
Jan: I got the weirdest feeling from this dream though
Jan: like.. I was in some kind of active service of the school
Jan: and I HAD to be on the team
Jan: and do whatever was required of me
Jan: like I had to be the key player or something
Jan: very strange

(it was a raining day.. something about a long overhanging along the front of the school, a new van that a coach pulled up along the back or side that I was walking by and told me to get in and that feeling of powerlessness, like I couldn't disobey or something because of something I had signed up for. Something about being with the people I had trained with before though... like that everyone had had a chance before me but I was last and the only one who had still to go. Most of them were there, not talking or almost like strangers.)

Last week:

Dream about power rangers. I was the red ranger and we had candy.. I remember that after we did our candy power up I fished mine (chocolate) from out of my mouth, rised it off at a sick and wrapped them back up- like saving that power for another day.

Few days before that:

Middleschool something about gym class again and underwear in lockers. I was helping Marilyn with her long hair, wrapping it up and using this large magnet thing to hold it in place- it looked like a bun cup magnet or something. Weird. Something about large feilds outside and an old bathtub just sitting there by the side next to a fence. Having to play a game like dodgeball...

Dreams- floating dances and old dreams of cave dwellers

First it started off as going to a mansion or something. I remmeber going to a room next to the outside pool with like apiece of exercise equipment and a bed ounge thing.

And then I was with a group of students i think, a class and we had all been captured... we were in this mall-like docking bay place and there was this fat man in charge who we never really interacted with but there was a girl our age who seemed to take a perverse pleasure in being in charge... perhaps the daughter of someone who owned the place. there was a small space for us to live in,all 20 of us and a single small bathroom. There was a clothes department that we were to be in charge of, it was similar to one that I dreamed of before.

She would come sometimes and issue mandates... I think she really didn't like me or something because she would come in and say "I thout I said that everyone was t wear a red shirt or something red on top." and some girls who didn't have red would be taken away or smething but I was weaing a thin red jumper over a white shirt and a red hat... I don't think that she was very cruel or any good at what she was doing, she couldn't do anything that sufficently scared us or at least I was sure that she was incompettant and i think she sensed that or that I was in charge or the most important or something... she would come in with her body guards and try to make our lives difficlt. Very odd. Once she came in and tried to come up with something and I think I asked he sarcasticall if she was going to tell us that the girl's shirts had to be blue this time but she decided on something had an evil smirk and said no, I just came for your hair. And that was low but I nonchalently smiled, grabbed a piar of siccors and cut it off below my ears under my hat and handed it to her. She didn't really want it because she was trying to get me mad or upset but she took it and was disapointed... I think then she came back and decided that was to follow her around as her personal assistant or something. No idea.. it was really strange because either we got close or she changed into someone else because when we went into a movie theatre ride she was all chatty and when a big alien monster got into the room was was hanging on to me... she was still a total jerk though. The alien monster thing was scary, I think that you had to be frightened before it would eat you but it came to the row in front of us and i think it stood over my head but I closed my eyes and tried hard not to feel anything and despite its best interests it moved away.

Then i think it changed to going to this mansion in a mountain... with the pool and the room out in back. It's very hard to remember the correct order.

Then I think I flew or was taken somewhere northern and visited Kelly's "new" place that her family was living in. It was so weird. Kelly wasn't there but her sisters and mom was and the road they lived on was two lane, deserted with nothing around the house. I went to Kelly's room and looked around but she didn't show up...

Then I think I was with the girls I sed to go to church with and we were in my old home. We were walking around or preparing for a dance or a skit or something and I was giving them a tour I think, we tested the rolling doors between the kitchen and the large room (bedroom or dining) and they stuck and moved with difficulty and Nat sai dthat we hadn't taken good care of them. I had to agree. "We often had messes in the other room" I said, and then I think i showed them a music thing and then it was time to preform. We lined up outside the other rollable doors from the hallway to the bedroom and I was trying to decide how to shut the music off without misisng my que or maybe hopeing that it would turn off on it's own- perhaps I had even forgotten about the music because it was blaring and Nat ran back and did something and it stopped. Thinking that it was off for good, the doors opened and we either danced or something into a V formation and stood, ready to preform, Nat had joined us before the doors opened, and as we started, the music came up again and it ws loud enough to ruin our skit thing becase we couldn't hear our music. Well of course everyone would be mad at that and me but we tried our best. Afterwards I think I tried to ask Nat what happened because i thought she went and turned it off. Apparently she couldn't figure out how and the thing just went on a lull of its own accord and restarted up.

Then I was doing some hiking thing.. I was with the girls and maybe some large youth group from the church. I think that we went horseback riding and slepted in tents perhaps and as we rested by the side of the road there was this guy who looked of pacific asian decent who was jogging past and everyone was like "Who's that?" and I think someone said that he was someone's son back from his mission or just on his misison or visiting or something and he had to get back to his group on foot. It was all very interesting.

And then i was in some sort of gymnasium. It felt like the church's. I remember hopping off of the stage and I was with these guys and I was wearing ballet stuff and we were told to do exercises, like ballet jumps and stuff along the short way of the gym. There was a women there in charge, petit and she was alwayoff in the side corner kind of, talking to someone. I remmeber wanting to get her attention so as I was doing these leapts I kythed or whatever, letting my brain hover a little above me and my body would pause mid-leap and hang there or glide slowly forward. She noticed and ran right over and she was a mster of the craft, she grabbed me and flung me around and up and did some weird dance thing. it was a little scary but spectacular.After that I was made to go to her class always and I gues sthat she was my teacher. Very odd. She spoke in this sibilant tone and I only heard her voice while I was in the groove. There were all these guys there that I was to dance with, do all number of floating dance exercises with. There was this one dance that she demonstrated where the more floating person (me0 would be kind of swung around rigt below the swinger's armpits in a circular arch around them and end up a baby doll swaddled in clothes in their arms in the end. o.O it was very very weird.

I think I had to go to a regular gym class besides and there was this guy there that either missed auditions or was kicked off who was there and I danced with him. I guess osmeone found out and that I wasn't supposed to do that because I got in trouble. I rememebr being in the shower (don't ask) with the leader of the team and he was just talking to me, berating me of how I would do something so foolish and with that guy, him, and how anything could have gone wrong and showed everyone my abilities and yadda yadda yadda... by then I was sorely regretting what I had done... someone came by and held their hand out between the shower curtain where the guy was and they held a long thick hair.. it was straigh but no longer than 4-5 inches... it had a bit of something at the end and the guy picked it up.. the conversation the guy had with the guy whose hand had the hair told me that the hair was a way to speak snake language and that this guy either naturally had it or had it by ways of the hair but he didn't know so after letting someone borrow it, he had to reinsert it into his face. I switched POVs to the guy and he looked into a mirror or somethign and there were two bleeding small holes onhis face above and to the side of his mouth and he was trying to decide which one to put the hair back into. He just shoved the end of the hair into the larger one, but not taking hold, he took it out and put it in the smaller one. Then the lady came by and she hissed and I couldn't understand what she was saying. Her lower body slithered in place like that old medusa badly-done clay special affects thing from the 70's and I couldn't undertsand her but I think that she wanted to know what was going on and she may have been mad.. I'm not sure.

I can't remember anything after that.



A few weeks ago I had some dreams that I didn't get around to writing down.
The first one I was in the car with my grandma and bro and we were driving along some turnpike.. I remmber that I had Rufus' CD in the CD player as I wanted her to listen to him but I was a little freaked out because I needed to fast forward the cusisng parts and I couldn't remember where they were. Which is odd because my dream self thought that there was some really bad stuff in there which wasn't true. I think i was confusing him with some angry rock group. So weird.

And then I had a dream about this family that lived in a cave that was half made out of stone an dthe other half, or the top was this huge blanket. The part where you came in wa sthe blanket. There was a family living in a large modern home not 100m nearby and they looked down at this rock dwelling family because I think that there was some sort of radiation on the planet that would slowly kill the rock people while the house people were safe underneath their metal and solar panel UV ray things on the roof. I remember either being on of the older boys in the family or as myself visiting, but somehow part of the family.. there were three older brothers living with their father and each of the brothers had 5-6 children, young. I think that the little boys had some sort of racing game. The inside of the tent was odd. Part of it had an old refridgerator and each other the brothers had a room of the caves that branched out with a huge bed where their families slept. The brothers were talking with their father over the recent dispute they had just had with the house people- that they had too many people perhaps and thet they were supposed to die off not grow and the brothers all sai dthat it wasn't their fault for having so many children. I remember going to the supermarket nearby where the older boy somehow found work or work that would hire him and he dressed up in the shop's uniform and stocked and stuff. I remember going to one side of the store and buy ing some crayons and chalk and paper and things for the little children to play with. My brother was there with me and we were trying to come up with things that the children would enjoy because they had basically nothing.


That was about it.

I had the weirdest dreams last night.

First it was something about Harry in some Tomb.. stone walls and those old stone caskets and everything except for any dead bodies. Ron was there with him and for some reason Snape washis guardian or something.. he handed him a leather guilded book that was very special with the instructions that he show no one. it could ruin everything if the other people were to read the hints and clues from the book that Harry had.

So Harry and Ron were in their rectangular, lit with unnatural light, tomb thingy and having fun playing around and three people came by to try to trick or ask him to read his book. Harry didn't care about the book at first because he didn't want to do any school work studying so it was burind under a pile of book in the middle stone sycaphugus. I can't remember the order of the people who came.. I think Peter Pettigrew came first.. Harry and Ron treated him like he was just some regular person they knew and when he asked for the book they just told him that they didn't know where it was. They were being distracted by their toys or something and didn't really want to get up and get it for him. Then Peter started whimpering or begging or something but they threw a pillow at him and told him to get out. I think Sirius came next, and this time Harry remember Snape's warning that the otehrs would use it to get ahead in the game. Sirius was sent away and told that he couldn't see Harry's book.

The last, I think was Ginny and she was harder to get rid of because she was like a nosy younger sibling, poking around the room trying to find the book even though her older brother and Harry told her to go away.

After they all left, I remmeber Harry starting to pull out his school books, these great big books which were actually thin but still big and stacked them on top of the stone bed thing while he pulled them up from inside it...



Then I was myself... I think I was on some sort of quest. I was wearing either my Hogwarts skirt or a pair of shorts but it was a very warm autumn night... I had a backback and a book. I actually think I was wearing a short sleeved white dress shirt with a vest and a tie...

I was to go on some challenge and lots of other people were going to go on the same thing. We were told that we could join together if we wanted. I remember setting off down the road, there were some buildings around more like a village or some theme park with clay buildings. The wind started to blow behind me, at me and I sat down in the middle of the concrete sidewalk. I had been told that there were pets that you were supposed to collect. One was a smaller Now and Later pet, rectangular and coloured just like the candy wrappers with the letters. They would be quite random and not very intelligent at all, basically just moving around with eyes and a mouth... the Second was a cross between a black duck and a puppy and they were bigger and were at least sentient.

As I sat there on the concrete, the wind blowing and my legs splayed ou in front of me, those little creatures came with the wind or something and I did my best to gather them up and not let the wind blow. For some reason I decided to just ignore the little candy animals and went immediately for the little black ball animals. They were difficult to keep as they kept trying to move and the wind would blow them away. I think I had about 4 of them, maybe three that I was constantly catching and trying to hold still. I was in a semi-concious state.. like when you fall asleep at the computer but still do stuff, so it was really difficult to hold on to the little guys. I also had my backpack and leather guilded book that I HAD to hold on.

Some other girls around me were trying to get the little animals too. I can't remember what we got but I think i was able to keep a few. The next thing I remember is asking the girls if they wanted to join me and have a group. One girl said yes but that she was waiting for her friend who was still through the processing plant.. she was just about to come so we waited.

I next remember traveling through the end of a walmart aisle.. no idea why that was there but I remember coming out of an aisle and meeting another one horizontal and blocking my way that I had to get around and the otehr girls/guys? with me were coming in the same direction from different aisles and we all moved around it together.

Then there was something about a school or an amusement park... It kind of reminded me of some outdoor themed place. I think I was slightly underground adn i knew a guy who was in on it who I knew was either our team leader (my group) and/or had some inside knowledge of what was goin on. We went into this room where there was an arcade and there were these Horiible Zombies in there, ready to attack us and we had to kill them.. it was really scary but we either used so guns or some special powers.. I remember having to turn around and help someone finish of some of the because they were all over the room.. I think Draco was in my group maybe.. anyways afterwards either some people left or our group was smaller... the guy in charge stayed and said that he had to set the Zombies up for the next group. Theye were like sacks or puppets or something now and he had to use magic to set them back up. I watched for a few seconds before realizing that I didn't want to be in the room when those things were reanimated because they could seriously hurt me.

I left the room and moved on to the next.. there was this outside courtyard and I could look into some of the buildings with glass windows- one looked like a botany lab or an indoor garden, I could see a mad scientist in there (who I knew was an actor) and a student going through some part of the quest. My group was ushered into another room across the courtyard that looked like a school lab only with a large square table.

I jokeningly came up with the next challenge to pretend that someone's hand was cut off with a lot of blood to freak out the stragler of our team who hadn't come yet (who was busy doing something else) and the person in charge actually thought that I was going over board. "Well the point of this thing is to scare everyone, right?" I countered and having figured it out no one debated it but no one wanted to do my idea either. I think it either scared them or they thought that it really was too much. I think that part of this quest was that you really thought that what was ging on was real and no one wanted to really make them live that.

Can't remmber much else. I think I woke up after that. The little black puppy duck things were cute in a freaky way. They were really really small though, small enough for me to almost keep in my hand.

Dreams - Sand on Mars

First I remember being on some shuttle, like a large white van with darkly tinted windows. it landed on Mars, a terraformed Mars. I can't remember WHY I was there but the XC team of girls was there too. The Sun was shining, if a litle bit bigger on Earth and the sky was a light but vibrant blue. I got out of the van and someone was there to greet me. I walked over to a building... the area around had been developed but it was still barren, I think the ground was sad. I remember that some girls from the team were on the side of the building where there was a shallow beach before a quickly deepening water. The water was not clear but the sand was fine and soft and deep. The water and sand was really warm. I dug my feet into the sand. There was a guy lifeguard there...

I think I wandered off and looked at some other things before coming back to the beach. I marveled how the air was breathable oxygen even though it felt different than earth's. I was afraid to try to go for a run or workout and find out how different it was. I looked across the water and saw a crane over a big pile of sand dirt.. like that are had been barely touched so far. I got into the water.. I think I swam out maybe 15 feet but the water got deep almost immediately... a wave came and I was thrown into the whip pull tide thing and almost drowned. The came to my rescue, actually saved my life and I was really grateful but embarrassed. He was a good sport about it and everyone was worried but a bit annoyed that i almost drowned. Ha. I think I left the beach after that.


I next remember being in a van back on earth going back to my house in NJ- only it was a bit more surreal than that. I can't rememeber an other cars around. Two girls that I knew from my Firth HS vball team were there but there were acting really really weird- all snotty. They had decided to come with us back home for some reason, more like uninvited tag along. A guy was driving us, the guy who took me to her sister's wedding and I was stuck in SC for a week... after dropping the girls and one of my best friends off we stopped at my house. I remmeber walking around the side and noting how different it seemed, the part on the right that you usually turn to go past stuck out in a different structural shape like a bed room was there and a door was there too. Anywaysthe guy said he needed to use the bathroom so I was like it's over there and told him to make sure that all three doors were closed. So I was a little annoyed because I had to wait for him to be done before I could head over to my friend's house down the street. I wandered around, went into the living room and a room my brother usually used and thought about making up a bed for the guy on the mattress on the floor- don't ask me whey- when I was like, what am I doing? I should just make him sleep on the couch is I can't get rid of him. So anyway I walk over to the other side of the house and the guy is obviously out of the bathroom, he's talking on the phone to someone and walking around that big room, usually a big bedroom but i had the double doors closed and I was afraid of opening them just in case he was being indecent. So I'm like getting mad and hoping that it wasn't my phone because he didn't even ask... so I yell out that I'm going over to Betty's (I can't stand waiting for this guy any longer and i have to rescue my friend from the bimbos) and he's like "okay" and then I started to walk away before remembering something: "Don't touch my computer okay?" I yelled back. I don't think he heard me because he didn't answer so I walked back up to the doors and yelled again. "Do NOT touch the computer in there, ok?!" And he said ok, or yes or something before being distracted and going back to his phone conversation.

So I left the house and started to the back of the house to travel through the back woods- don't ask me why. Only the woods were different.. reminded me of some Fantasy Chinese wood challenge course.. I don't remember much else after this.


(About the beach on Mars part... [and no, this is not poetry, I took this from an IM]

like the terraformed Mars two nights ago
and how the oxygen was different since it had been changed with a machine to be breathable but it was still alien air
yeah I was afriad to go running or I'd pass out
and the ground was all sand without any organic stuff in it like you know the play sand?
the entire planet was like that, a golden colour
but we couldn't stay long because of the radiation

there was a beach and the water got deep really relly quickly- more like a pool
only it had waves
and I went swimming
but the rip tide caught me and I almost drowned
the life guard saved me
but it was scary

Mars was really warm
but not humid
and bright
we were closer to the sun
and the sky didn't have any clouds

we were practically in the middle of nowhere
there were a few buildings
and the van shuttle we had used to visit
but that was it
it was newly terraformed
everything was artificial

(across from the mini beach I could see the sand
and a crane/thing that construction workers used
to level the terrain and stuff
like they were getting ready to build)
because the little area was new and while it might be able to sustain itself
there was nothing there we'd be familiar with
only a few planted trees
that had been brought
nothing else
even the beach was the soft sand.. no sea life
no debris
and you could almost feel the increased radiation

Singing Group Dream

So last night was a cool dream.

The first thing I remember is singing at the end of this line of teenager/college student singers. Like I was in a band or a group or something. We were on some school stage, maybe a high school but it wasn't so big. I think that there were 6 of us and I was at the end next to this lanky redheaded glasses wearing guy. A black girl was in the middle and singing part of a verse (she had a little raspy voice but she could sing) and the whole groups was walking back and forth in this line facing the crowd. I knew that we were in some sort of band.. and that the producers/boss kept giving me all the opening and closing verses in all the songs because I was the popular and talented one or something. I was bemused because I don't think I'm the great of a singer- but realized that I was the person in the group that the general populace favoured (probably my crazy fun ditzy attitude and coolness) <.< , and as I listened to another guy sing another verse to a sing I'd never heard before as we all walked dorkily back and forth I decided that I was supposed to sing the last and closing verse. So not knowing anything I just butted in and made up something that i thought rhymed. Half way through singing this very short verse I realized that the carrot headed boy next to me was upset and then I realized that it was supposed to be his verse. I felt really bad and as soon as the end ended we all exoted the stage and I immediately apologized and offered him to sing one of my parts next time (I always had all the good parts). I think he declined or a producer came and shuffled us over to some round tables on the back of the stage for us to sit at.

(I remember doing other songs and that the microphone was being difficult- either it was too short and I kept trying to pull it and was stuck at the side with my body turned toward the mic or it was messed up and annoying.. I remember doing the other songs. What was cool is that I think i was weraing my Ravenclaw uniform- the grey short skirt and vest and tie and black Mary Janes with knee high stockings)

Some fans were supposed to come and give skittles ot MMs or something to their favourite person... I sat at the last table closest to the wall across from the red headed boy. A whole bunch of fan girls rushed in... Some girl ran over to the red headed guy and dropped a whole handful of light green oes and gushed over him, as soon as she left I raised an eyebrow and told him how populare he was (trying to get his self esteem up because I feared that he thought that he wasn't considered as good as some people in the group and that why he didn't get as many singing parts). I think that the Skittles giving was color coded because another fan girl say me and give me a huge pile of red skittles, and then another girl.. another girl ran up to the guy and gave him some light green skittle.. I guess my color was red and I thought that I should have more fans but I didn't mind. I figured that I just reallt messed up on the concert that day. I think I got up and moved to a different table, wanting to be more accessible or maybe feeling out of the way.

At the other table some black girls came up to me with a manilla envelope and asked to interview me for their school paper. They seemed a little uninterested in me so when they opened up a book/folder from the manilla envelope and I saw a baton team I was like "Oh! batons! I used to do that!" and the girls were like- "What? Really?" and looked at me with a little better light. I told them that I did Flag squad my freshman-no wait my Sophmore year and the year after that wheni moved I did Batons. (I have no idea why I said I did batons- I think my dream self was confused). I think told them some stuff and baton/flag throwing stuff and signed some autographs and they moved on.

I partially woke up then and wondered what I was thinking telling them that since it was never official. I mused on the fact of trying to do a flag thing in front of an audience for the next show since i then would undoubtedly either prove my skills or the producers would hear and make me so it. I figured that I would impress the people with throwing a flag around and not looking when I caught it and talk during the routine- I think figured that it would be likely for me if I were to throw it up high and that it would never come down- stuck on a light or something. To be funny entertainment, I would look up puzzled, and then when it fell and hit my head I'd run around screaming "The Sky is falling! The sky is falling!" I'd probably trip over my own feet purposefully or trip over a cable and fall to the ground and go "Ow"!, probably to laughter. >.<

Dreams.. thrift shop

Dreams

I was with my 11th grade concert choir teacher and the concert cjoir only it was twice the size of what it really was and I hardly knew anyone. We got on a bus and went to a trip. At first I thought that we were really up North or something so I wanted to buy some cloth and lace for a lolita outfit... some girls from my freshman basketball team were there and we were at some large hotel campus like thing, I remember that we were supposed to be outside to get on the busses to go somewhere so I followed the girls down/up some stairs and we turned left and were about to exit through some double doors on the left but we spotted a kind of tiny cafeteria snack counter so everyone had to look at it and go "ouuuu, ahhhh" and plan to sneak back down later after we had gotten back.

I wanted to check out this large barn sized cloth area in the hotel but we were going right away so I was a little disapointed but my teacher looked at me like I was being silly, they said 'Don't you know where we are going to go?" but I didn't know quite were we were. Someone mentioned that we were in the state with the umm "Eden" mall? or something and then I was like, isn't that in Ohio? And they were like, yeah. So we were all about to get into these mini buses and vans, and I was with some girls I wanted to hang out with only they went towards this large van with all these people and I was like, there'll never be room for me, but some guys in the van started yalling for one more person to hop in so I approache dthe left and sat in the second row next to this guy. Another guy was in the front and he was playing a hand held video game or something, I think the guy to my left grabbed it from him and kept playing and the first guy was lik e"Hey! You'll ruin it" but the second guys was like "Nah" and he played, died, but the score had been over 130 so the guy still passed the level and could move to the second one.

Then I was in some huge thrift shop. It was almost like one of those indoor arcade games. my family was there- I think I was with my grandma and my brother was nearby. I walked past a giant basketball hoop mounted on the wall with giant stuffed animals and children being thrown up to sit in the net... I was looking around. I found this aquarium area and I entered it; there were all these ceiling high blue water large hexagon aquarium all after one another making a maze, the ceiling was reflecting the color and there weren't any lights except for the fish tanks. I walked into the area and look at tank after tank of the fish, after tank after tank. Soon i started to get grossed out because I don't like fish really, they freak me out but I was in this huge fish tank maze. I looked down at the floor and tried to look at the red carpet only, blocking out the bright blue glowing things around me.

I finally exited the maze and I think that I was in some sort of large grocery store. Wayne and James were there and wanted to start buying food now. I had really wanted to go back to the toy thrift area because I wanted to find some lego people and some cloth to make barbie doll outfits out of. Don't ask I have no idea why I wanted Barbie stuff but when I was little I liked them a lot.

I reluctuantly helped gather some food, I remember thinking that one part of the store was deserted, which was odd because it was usually busy but the store was so crowded now that there was a line like 100 meters long blocking that area and all the new shoppers didn't know it existed so they didn't go through the line or around through the hidden side. We went around through the hidden side and got some food from the area- I think it was a delli, seafood, produce area. We then returned to the line and joined it. I think that there was a large group of students there all shopping together for their food and we either got in line before them or with them but before most of them.

Rufus Quizza

You are "Poses"
You want to be anyone but yourself. Obsessed with
outdoing, you've lost all sense of identity in
the expensive melee that has become your life.
Citibank will come to break your kneecaps any
day now. Poor, soon-to-be-dead you.


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Music: Rufus Wainwright - Waiting for a Dream

Dreams

I think that this one was very interesting.. the second almost book-worthy.

First there was some sort of Blair Witch Project thing going on. In color. There was a college aged guy with a camera and the only thing I saw was through the camera. He had got a bunch of friends along for a trip in the wilderness camp type thing. They arrived at the llodges... walked around a little... he said some things that built up the spookiness, mostly because I knew that this was supposed to be scary.

After a lil bit... well there was something there, something that started turning the people into animals. Literal animals but with their own faces. I thin that this was influenced by KoRn's new music video where the singers have their faces on some dogs, it really freaked me out. So anyways, the people were turning into animals like different ones. Like a dog, a wolf, a large snake, a hyenna, ect ect. I don't think that I really saw any close up because they were dangerous. I think you had to do something before you were turned back, if you could ever turn back. After some time, I think either all his friend were killed or turned back.. the guy seemed older though like a Professor and he seemed to know that what happened proves some scientific fact. He called together some scientists and news reporters to come spend a week at the lodge to see his theories proven. it was something about genetics I think... he was sitting in his cabin looking at some transparent film with a triumphant look in his face.

This time I was there as myself. I remember getting out of a overpacked station wagon... then wandering around the beautiful woods, there was a nice stream with all these green trees. There were some metal fences around too but nothing you couldn't climb over, much like a park.
Then I remember the horror. I was in a one room cabin, modernish with some other people and we were scared out of our lives. Some people-turned animals kept running at the door, trying to get in. I think we either had a thick screen door or a two piece door with a screen at the top because we could see them. I had a pallet on the floor right in the middle of the room in front of the door. We were low on food, afriad that we'd turn into the atrocious animals, wild, frenzy animals that wish to bite us whenever they came within feet- like it was their sole purpose. It reminded me of those scary zombie movies where the disease is carried through bites and wounds. I remmeber thinking that we should take turn taking watch. The person on my right had been bitten I think, and they had a day left before they started showing the disease and harming us. Even so, we were willing to sleep in their presence but wouldn't trust them before long. I think the person was slowly cooking some food- we were low on food but we were all hungry. The people to my left had already started sleeping and I was so tired too. I knew that I could stay up though. One of the symptons of the disease at first is heightened awakefulness, and it's harder to go to sleep so I knew that I should let this person take first watch.

I can't remember much after that... I remember going outside, running away from some animals, turning voluntarily into an eagle or a hawk and flying away before turning back into myself.

The next thing I remember is being in some giant factory. I think I had just been captured or taken or transfered or something. It was a semi futuristic place. Conveyor belts were there and some guards that didn't seem malevelent. There was a second floor by way of stairs, you could see it because it was all open. I was on the first floor, I walked over to the conveyor belt to see some teenagers doing something on it. I was surprised to realize that I knew these people- I recognized them from school as the smart ones all the way from elementary school.

I immediately knew what was going on. It was odd, like I had partial amnesia but I KNEW what was going on. The conveyor belt had bood on it, like bread and cakes and other things and the smart kids were supposed to be processing it. Something was wrong because they weren't acting right, they seemed dumb down and they were eating some of the food as it went by. I tried to tell them not to, there was some plot to make them stupid. They just laughed at me and told me that the food was great and that I should sign up for this post because you got to eat free. I looked and I saw... the plot- there was some battle between the earthlings and someone else... the someone elses wanted to make us all stupid in the past so that we would evole to be their servents while we had done something sort as bad as they had- I think we fought them in a war, perhaps we were still fighting but if the someone else's succeeded in this latest endevour, all would be lost. We might have even used them as servants and they were trying to get back at us for it. I tried to tell the people not to eat the food- that there was something in it like a genetic virus that would make their children no better than dufoons. They wouldn't listen and I feared that it would be too late. The guards still seemed to mostly ignore me, they didn't seem hostile. I had to do something.

Someone came behind me, lead me away, told me 'Not here' and with some sense I could tell that this person knew what was going on just the same way I knew. I had the feeling that hardly anyone in the billions of people on both side knew what was truly going on and how the universe could be messed up if they messed with time that far back, changing one people and the retaliation that might entail...

The man lead me over to a conveyor beltnearby, it was stationary and covered in boxes of supplies. He said that he knew what was going on and planned to stop it, and that if I wanted to do something, I could help him. He needed help and he needed to know what I knew. I knew in a way that he was going against his government, his people. I couldn't tell what side he was from but right now I think that he working on the someone else's. He looked human though and I think that maybe both sides were.

I agreed to go with him, and I started to pack some supplies that I understood the people in charge here were allowing him to take. I picked up a brown paper bag and took the items out of it so that i could use it to transport some goods, I noticed that it was still heavy and that there were actually two bags stack in each other and hidding something in between them, I pulled off the first bag and looked in the second to see a yellow thing. I was excited because I realized that if we did this purposefully that we could take more supllies without the people knowing, thus giving ourselves an advantage. There was a teenaged boy also helping the man (perhaps a scientist or professor?) pack up things and I could tell that he worked for the man so I went over to him to share the "secret". He didn't understand at all though, something was wrong with him if he couldn't understand so simple a concept and I realized that he had already been changed. I helped the man pack the rest of the supplies and place them on a cart.

The man called out to the people in charge saying that he'd be taking 'this one' (me) too to help him and the guards were perfectly okay with that, just nodding and saluting him out. I followed the floating/rolling? cart out, through some enclosed walls. I think that the factory was really in space. We got into some rocket and blasted away to join another ship. Everything had gravity though.

When we joined the other ship... well I don't recalled what happened first, I just remember realizing that I was different too. I was human but my body felt odd. I wasn't hungry or thirsty and I didn't need to use the loo.. I felt half machine like I could do things that I couldn't do before. I knew that I was different because I still had the same mind and I still was the same person and except for the amnesia I knew things and understood things other people didn't seem able to. I felt like a walking doll.

No matter. I decided to play 'normal'. The man introduced me to some other girls when we docked, and I felt weird again, it's hard to explain but I almost felt like a persocon and the other girls were like persocons only more lively and chattery I think. I remember that I was wearing some dress that was lolita. It was so pretty and large with ruffles and an apron.

I remember walking around the ship... it was kind of like an underwater ship only in space and much much larger. The hallways were actually spacious but the doors slid open automatically.
There was one girl, with dark long hair and dark eyes. I was looking for her and another girl (one of them was named Cele but I can't remember which) and I follwed some inate sense to find them. When I opened the door the black hair girl was terrified and so upset. I didn't know it, but all the girls had their own small rooms, and this girl needed to share because of some ability... she was terrified and wailed out, begging me not to turn her in and tell anyone that she had emphatic ability. I was a little confused, and I guess i must have looked it because the girl explained that that was how I found her, by using my own emphatic ability. She said that she needed to sleep near someone so she didn't lose herself and to please not turn him in for having this special ability. I had had no idea about anything like that and didn't think it really mattered so I told her that I wouldn't tell.

I remember later, walking into some room, perhaps a advanced austrology play room? The black haired girl had a globe, only you couldn't really make out what was on the globe as it was a dark misty color... bright neon rings were around it and the girl was playing with the black glowing on carelessly like a child- a flashback- of the same girl in the past.. in some old science room. She was dirty and half crying but determined to move the black ring on the globe. It was stuck.. a General came in and told her that we were finished, that unless she could get one of the rings to move and block an incoming missle that all hope was lost. Some of the rings were missing, and i knew that others had holes and would never be able to catch and reflect the missle... our only hope was the black ring that never had moved. But she was determined to move that black ring, she had moved all the others so she tried to forcefully pour up that ring to move it. It wouldn't move so with the clock ticking down she poured her inate ability through her fingertips along the black ring inch by inch, willing it to have the life to move and obey her will...

I blinked and the girl, now dressed in a pretty dress with ribbons on her hair was still gaily playing with the rings, lingering over the black one as she spun it in all directions around the globe. She had been there in the past, with me. We had been ther and now we were here but I didn't think that anyone knew about her, or perhaps they did and just kept quiet and didn't tell her. She was special.

Some time later we were to go on a mission with the man. I was surprised to find that he had a very high rank in the someone else's military.. I think he was a Captain. He took me and two other girls and we got into a passenger rocket ship to blast down to the now deserted Earth. There were no people around, just strange beings like a giant dinosaur and robotic things. I remember something happened on the rocketship... it was more like an airplane and I think that some of the passengers didn't like us (the girls) because we were different and glowed or gave them some weird feeling... I remember leaving the dark hair girl, now my friend in the back where our seats were and moving up the darkly lit interior to find the man... hmm can't remmeber much else except that we landed soon, safely.

We got down to the planet and we got into this vehicle.. it reminded me of a ambulence only futuristic and more like a landrover with seat all in the back. I was sitting in the way back and there was a guy there to drive us, his specialty was driving. The man was in the car, in military mode. We set out to chart the area and see what was around, perhaps we were searching for something, I don't know.

It was odd because the lieut or whatever his rank was who was driving had never driven an earth vehicle before, yet he was driving along the deserted but well kept roads and onto the freeway with the proper turn signals and obeyed all the traffic laws like stopping at a stop sign.
I closed my eyes and watched as we drove, realizing that this was a good thing, if there were any other vehicles out there they wouldn't expect us driving around and we could blow up in an accident. I envisioned other furturistic cars along the road from my bird eye view and wiced in relief as several almost ran into us, missing only because we were driving in the right direction or did the right signals. I think the man driving was different like us- he had driven a car like this before and he had learned the rules sometime, yet in this life he had never... his abilities came back to him as he drove and I had to wonder whether the Captian had known this. The guy had seemed nervous when I mentioned that he drove like an old earther but the Captain just ignored it and told him to drive on. I think having abilities like that was bad- perhaps it got you killed.

Suddenly some flying machine started to follow us from the air and it started shooting at us. Bright red laser blasts... there was not much that we could do. I think that the thing was some automotive military thing left over from the last war. It looked kind of like a small American UFO. Or maybe it was the someone else's. The guy driving kept driving, trying to get away or avoid the blasts but we couldn't stop and we couldn't fire back because we didn't have any weapons. We wer hit again and again. I watched from above as the red weapons fire hit the back over and over again and except for some big lurches and the wheels flattening before returning to their right shape nothing happened. We drove through the smoothly paved roads and the smooth green glass.. saw some really interesting things as we drove by like a giant dinosaur but the thing kept shooting at us. I think something got the ship though.

I can't remember what happened next.. I think I woke up. I think that we had been on the planet to find more clues, or euipment or perhaps we were trying to get to some military scientific base to do something.

Quizza

My life is rated PG.
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3. She begins her sentences with: "Susan Sarandon says..."

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5. She owns any of the following: a water filter, a tabletop fountain, an acre of rain forest, a mutt from the pound.

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My blog is turning out to be nothing but Quiz results and dreams.

You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


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